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I think I'm almost done.
Studying that is...
Not that there aren't more papers or books to read, I think maybe I'm just losing my motivation and my "give a shit factor" is slowly decreasing. After Suzie got ambushed in her generals my feeling toward the whole damn thing is increasingly defensive. If they want to put me through that for the sake of their own ego-induced power trips then fuck them. If that is what this whole thing is really about than fuck it. I don't really give a shit if they pass me or not. 'Cause at the end of the day, whether or not I pass don't mean a goddamn thing except that they were all in a good mood that day. Besides, there are so many more x-files episodes to watch....
I got to hang out with Avi and Ennjoili a couple days ago. It was so good to see Lakayla...I think she really misses me. Avi was a bit distant...no, hesitant is a better description. Enj treated me like I never left which was great. I'm going to try to foster those relationships as much as I can. I think I need those girls in my life, as tomulutuous as our relationship has been...I think they maybe need me too.
Ok, it's Saturday night at 8:29pm. What am I gonna do? Read some more papers, ponder my dissertation project and grant proposal, and maybe when the 19 year old boys across the street get back, go over and have a beer.
As Kip would say,
peace out.
Studying that is...
Not that there aren't more papers or books to read, I think maybe I'm just losing my motivation and my "give a shit factor" is slowly decreasing. After Suzie got ambushed in her generals my feeling toward the whole damn thing is increasingly defensive. If they want to put me through that for the sake of their own ego-induced power trips then fuck them. If that is what this whole thing is really about than fuck it. I don't really give a shit if they pass me or not. 'Cause at the end of the day, whether or not I pass don't mean a goddamn thing except that they were all in a good mood that day. Besides, there are so many more x-files episodes to watch....
I got to hang out with Avi and Ennjoili a couple days ago. It was so good to see Lakayla...I think she really misses me. Avi was a bit distant...no, hesitant is a better description. Enj treated me like I never left which was great. I'm going to try to foster those relationships as much as I can. I think I need those girls in my life, as tomulutuous as our relationship has been...I think they maybe need me too.
Ok, it's Saturday night at 8:29pm. What am I gonna do? Read some more papers, ponder my dissertation project and grant proposal, and maybe when the 19 year old boys across the street get back, go over and have a beer.
As Kip would say,
peace out.