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I feel too not good right now. I sucked at work today, and I couldn't focus on anything. There's another dweeb who tries to keep talking to me there, and all I can think when he's talking is "vampire, vampire, VAMPIRE!" When I walked out of the bathroom, he kept on saying hi but I just ignored him, then he yelled semi-loudly, then I turned around and he was like, "I was saying hi to you a bunch of times." I just said oh. I've talked to him once, and I wasn't passionately amazed by his personality, therefore I found him to be a bore. It's so weird how it takes so much in order for me to think someone is interesting, but if there's a pretty candy wrapper on the floor, I'll be fascinated by its beauty instantly. So, I'm behind in my studies, but I don't care. Right now I have no motivation to continue, and I just want to spend my days with Lucy and Petie. I wish I could sleep-in everyday and wake up in Greer. I wish I lived in tree in the forest, just like The Bernstein Bears. Their mom is smart. God. I'm doing many things that are against my will in order to live, but I can't say I'm completely unhappy. Today I just felt so lousy. Also, today I kept on thinking that I was fat, and that I'm gaining weight. I never think of that, but today I was, maybe because I lately I've been eating a lot of junk and I've never exercised or played any sort of sport in my entire life. I guess I should be lucky I'm my size for the way I live. I really do feel I have a sedentary lifestyle and I should do more physical stuff. Does playing the keyboard count?