There's enough sorrow in the world, isn't there, without trying to invent it. - E.M. Forster [213]
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Spoilers for Episode: A Thin Line Between Chuck & Nate [Aired: 1/9/08]
Jenny is sitting on her bed in her room, her knees against her chest a she rests her arms and chin over her knees, obviously lost in thought. A frustrated sigh escapes her lips, she roughly runs her fingers through her hair and gets to her feet, moving quietly over to her desk. She sits down heavily, pulling the top of the computer open and starting at the blank screen for a moment before starting to write.
Well crap.
That pretty much sums it up doesn't it? Crap. I don't know what the hell happened or how it happened but it did. I became queen bee and Blair is shoved off her high horse to become pretty much a nobody in the school. Maybe except one that people talk and gossip about because we all know that when you're in high school the mill feeds off of gossip.
God, how the hell did this happen? How did I let this happen?
It's all my fault. Well, not totally but I didn't have to go and open my big mouth. Little sister's snoop, it's what we do and I just so happen to hear Dan and Serena talking. They were talking about Blair and Chuck. Chuck of all people? Come on. But I don't think there is anyone in the world that wouldn't have said something about it.
What I want to know is how that got to Gossip Girl. There is no way that Dan would have told anyone about it; especially after Serena was the one that took the first hit with the pregnancy tests.
Thank goodness Blair wasn't pregnant. We all know the world isn't ready for her to reproduce. Let alone with Chuck Bass. *shudder*
But I know my brother, he wouldn't open his mouth up about anything. No matter what. That's one thing I love about Dan, he's like Fort Knox with secrets. He never told mom and dad about the time I snuck out of the house before mom moved to Hudson to wait in line for concert tickets after I was grounded.
I'm not innocent in all this either though, I did tell Nate what was going on when everyone was talking about the latest Gossip Girl update that just so happened to be scandalizing his girlfriend. I could have kept my mouth shut, I should have kept my mouth shut and told Nate to go ask Blair because she had all the right answers he needed to hear.
No, I had to go and take a page from the Blair Waldorf book myself and be spiteful because of just how much of a bitch she's been to me. Maybe I did learn too much from her when I was her stepping stool?
Yes, I told Nate that the Gossip Girl rumors were true and that it was Chuck that she had also slept with besides him. I was the reason that he bolted through half the school and decided to make chopped meat out of Chuck's face. I am the cause of their friendship breaking up in such an explosive way.
No, I didn't sleep with the two of them and I didn't force Blair to. She did. She made her bed and has to lie in it.
Yes, I did escilate this situation even when I should have kept my mouth shut and tell Nate to just ask Blair. But me and him connected or something that night of Blair's birthday party. Or something, I just couldn't lie to him. And from what I know of Blair she wouldn't have told him the truth; even with a gun to her head she wouldn't have because she knew what the backlash would be.
The question is: did I?
When we're in fifth grade they teach us all about peer pressure. What the teachers, books and film's fail to warn or teach us about is the real girls in school; the ones we have to worry ourselves about. Nobody tells us what to do when the one person you more than slightly envy falls from high school grace - with or without your help - and suddenly the girls that were her friends and afraid to stick up for themselves let alone a freshman suddenly have tunnel vision and are focused on you.
Nope, that wasn't in the hand book. I should know, I read it a few times.
Also? Was I that pathetic when I was the clique peon? The new girl that has suddenly taken my spot is now the one that handles all of the 'unseemly' chores as the other girl's see it. I don't think it's right...then again I didn't say anything that would rock that this very strange turn of events that has happened at CB this past week. I should have, I know that I should have. But I didn't.
Now that I seem to have what I wanted - minus being on Blair's good side - will I too turn into one of these elitest plastic bobble heads that run the school?
Muse: Jenny Humphrey
Fandom: Gossip Girl
Word Count: 846
Spoilers for Episode: A Thin Line Between Chuck & Nate [Aired: 1/9/08]
Jenny is sitting on her bed in her room, her knees against her chest a she rests her arms and chin over her knees, obviously lost in thought. A frustrated sigh escapes her lips, she roughly runs her fingers through her hair and gets to her feet, moving quietly over to her desk. She sits down heavily, pulling the top of the computer open and starting at the blank screen for a moment before starting to write.
Well crap.
That pretty much sums it up doesn't it? Crap. I don't know what the hell happened or how it happened but it did. I became queen bee and Blair is shoved off her high horse to become pretty much a nobody in the school. Maybe except one that people talk and gossip about because we all know that when you're in high school the mill feeds off of gossip.
God, how the hell did this happen? How did I let this happen?
It's all my fault. Well, not totally but I didn't have to go and open my big mouth. Little sister's snoop, it's what we do and I just so happen to hear Dan and Serena talking. They were talking about Blair and Chuck. Chuck of all people? Come on. But I don't think there is anyone in the world that wouldn't have said something about it.
What I want to know is how that got to Gossip Girl. There is no way that Dan would have told anyone about it; especially after Serena was the one that took the first hit with the pregnancy tests.
Thank goodness Blair wasn't pregnant. We all know the world isn't ready for her to reproduce. Let alone with Chuck Bass. *shudder*
But I know my brother, he wouldn't open his mouth up about anything. No matter what. That's one thing I love about Dan, he's like Fort Knox with secrets. He never told mom and dad about the time I snuck out of the house before mom moved to Hudson to wait in line for concert tickets after I was grounded.
I'm not innocent in all this either though, I did tell Nate what was going on when everyone was talking about the latest Gossip Girl update that just so happened to be scandalizing his girlfriend. I could have kept my mouth shut, I should have kept my mouth shut and told Nate to go ask Blair because she had all the right answers he needed to hear.
No, I had to go and take a page from the Blair Waldorf book myself and be spiteful because of just how much of a bitch she's been to me. Maybe I did learn too much from her when I was her stepping stool?
Yes, I told Nate that the Gossip Girl rumors were true and that it was Chuck that she had also slept with besides him. I was the reason that he bolted through half the school and decided to make chopped meat out of Chuck's face. I am the cause of their friendship breaking up in such an explosive way.
No, I didn't sleep with the two of them and I didn't force Blair to. She did. She made her bed and has to lie in it.
Yes, I did escilate this situation even when I should have kept my mouth shut and tell Nate to just ask Blair. But me and him connected or something that night of Blair's birthday party. Or something, I just couldn't lie to him. And from what I know of Blair she wouldn't have told him the truth; even with a gun to her head she wouldn't have because she knew what the backlash would be.
The question is: did I?
When we're in fifth grade they teach us all about peer pressure. What the teachers, books and film's fail to warn or teach us about is the real girls in school; the ones we have to worry ourselves about. Nobody tells us what to do when the one person you more than slightly envy falls from high school grace - with or without your help - and suddenly the girls that were her friends and afraid to stick up for themselves let alone a freshman suddenly have tunnel vision and are focused on you.
Nope, that wasn't in the hand book. I should know, I read it a few times.
Also? Was I that pathetic when I was the clique peon? The new girl that has suddenly taken my spot is now the one that handles all of the 'unseemly' chores as the other girl's see it. I don't think it's right...then again I didn't say anything that would rock that this very strange turn of events that has happened at CB this past week. I should have, I know that I should have. But I didn't.
Now that I seem to have what I wanted - minus being on Blair's good side - will I too turn into one of these elitest plastic bobble heads that run the school?
Muse: Jenny Humphrey
Fandom: Gossip Girl
Word Count: 846