019 | accidental audio

[gonnabe1st]

[What you hear is a pen or a pencil on paper. Pages or sheets being leafed through, some silence. Then, a frustrated sigh- and out of nowhere, whatever arrangement of paper was just sitting next to the recording device goes flying, crashes against the wall and audibly scatters on the floor.]

Damn it!!

((ooc: Mods decree that nobody can learn FMA-

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[cyberelric]

What's wrong Mello?

[voice] 1/2

[gonnabe1st]

Wha- oh for fuck's sake-

[something is slammed shut. Probably his laptop, the audio transmission cuts off.]

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[gonnabe1st]

I'm fine.

Frustrated, is all.

[cyberelric]

Okay, but why?

[locked, unhackable]

[gonnabe1st]

...

Don't bother trying to teach anybody alchemy.

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[cyberelric]

Huh? But why? Alchemy is a good thing. It helps people...

[locked, unhackable]

[gonnabe1st]

Remember I was a State Alchemist for the duration of a virus?

[locked, unhackable]

[cyberelric]

Yes, I know, you've mentioned it before again, but that's not the best example of Alchemy being good for the people. Seriously, it's not an evil thing, I swear.

[locked, unhackable]

[gonnabe1st]

That's not the point, Ed. I know just as fucking well that a tool or a science is never inherently good or evil.

What I'm getting at is that I can't use it. Even though I still have the knowledge, I can still draw arrays and know what all those things stand for, but it doesn't- I can't activate them.

[locked, unhackable] 1/2

[cyberelric]

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[locked, unhackable] 2/2

[cyberelric]

But why not? That's how it works, in general. What's missing? I'd ask about your will but I know you're trying, but even if you fail a transmutation at first, there should be some reaction.

[locked, unhackable]

[gonnabe1st]

Like I need you to tell me that.

But there isn't one. None whatsoever. To think I have years worth of memories just about this-

[locked, unhackable]

[cyberelric]

I didn't...I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you want it.

[locked, unhackable]

[gonnabe1st]

Christ.

Ed, I wanted it because I had it before. You're not to blame here.

[locked, unhackable]

[cyberelric]

I know I'm not to blame. I know that. But it's not fair you can't and I can.

[locked, unhackable]

[gonnabe1st]

Don't apologize to me if something isn#t your fault.

Some things just happen to be limited to the worlds they originate from, alchemy, bending, kinds of magic. Nothing to it.