one day...
Just when it gets ok again every ounce of happiness i had gets crushed. It's like your so proud of the little bit you had and nobody cares. People are always saying "do things for yourself" "do what makes you happy" but the reality is that nobody wants to be a reject. Nobody wants to be out there and not accepted. You might as well be miserable and live your life the way people want you or just live by being rejected. I guess you get used to it after a while though. Things get numb eventually. But as I'm writing this and it probably makes no sense to any of you, i'm determined to find somebody who cares what i'm talking about no matter how much they hate me sometimes. You figure that should be easy to find but it's amazing how fast people are ready to stab you in the back. Sometimes I feel like I should keep everything to myself no matter how much i wanna get it off my chest because one day I'm gonna regret it. The fact that people who hate me know that much about me just pisses me off. I guess I'll stop babbling and go out and do something with my life.
xo
xo