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Today sucked but it was actually productive. I realized that I need to grow up. I can't always be counting on people to hold me when I cry and be my "crying shoulder". The world just isn't like that anymore. Beyond that why my day sucked... I have been a bitch to Alicia lately and I realized it so I was gonna go all out for her birthday. I made her think we were gonna have a little get together with my family but when she got here all our friends were gonna be here and I went around and got everybody to make a car thing and I was gonna make a cake and everything. Just so everyone knows, the partys canceled. I know now that no matter how hard I try it's just not going to be enough. There are some days when I know I should give up but today I really am. Sure I know the difference between good and bad and bitchy and nice but I dont see how anything I did was bad. When somebody thinks that you arent worth their time then make them a waste of time. It's all just a disapointment