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This morning: 127 pounds.
Will someone kill me please? I am too pussy to do it myself.
How did I get like this? We ate Denny's last night. I am not eating today or tomorrow or after that. I want to cry, but I am too depressed, I don't have enough energy to cry. I hate myself. I am so unhappy. I hate this thing that has taken over my life. I am so miserable. I don't wear my depression on my sleeve like every other kid blaring Good Charlotte through their headphones with a Kurt Cobain t-shirt on. If I were smaller I would be sooo happy. HOW DID I GAIN SO MUCH WEIGHT?
All the guys think I am so hot, but they've never seen me naked, or with out any makeup on, or even little makeup on. No one knows what it's like to feel so ugly. I wish I could just hide away from the world, my worst fear is that someone will finally see the real me. Someone will discover who I really am.
I am taking fucking Elementary Algebra in college this summer. How pathetic is that? I didn't even meet their standards in math! Fuck this. I need to stop pitying myself. I am going running. Right now.
Will someone kill me please? I am too pussy to do it myself.
How did I get like this? We ate Denny's last night. I am not eating today or tomorrow or after that. I want to cry, but I am too depressed, I don't have enough energy to cry. I hate myself. I am so unhappy. I hate this thing that has taken over my life. I am so miserable. I don't wear my depression on my sleeve like every other kid blaring Good Charlotte through their headphones with a Kurt Cobain t-shirt on. If I were smaller I would be sooo happy. HOW DID I GAIN SO MUCH WEIGHT?
All the guys think I am so hot, but they've never seen me naked, or with out any makeup on, or even little makeup on. No one knows what it's like to feel so ugly. I wish I could just hide away from the world, my worst fear is that someone will finally see the real me. Someone will discover who I really am.
I am taking fucking Elementary Algebra in college this summer. How pathetic is that? I didn't even meet their standards in math! Fuck this. I need to stop pitying myself. I am going running. Right now.