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I hate this! If I'm not even in control of my own body, then what in the world AM I in control of? I'm 22, I have a degree, yet I still answer to my dad.
I hate taking money from my parents. If they had money to give, I'd feel better about it. But they make me feel guilty about every dollar. I am dependent on them and yet still broke. It's the worst of both worlds. The worst part is I can't even become easily independent because the car I drive is in my dad's name. Again, I'd feel better about that if it were a nice car. Other kids' parents buy them brand new cars. My sister's car was bought new, by my parents. My girlfriend bought her car herself, new. One of my friends just got a 2011 from her parents. And I'm still driving an old piece of junk that my dad traded for some stone tile. Like I said, it's the worst of both worlds. I have to follow my parents' commands because they can just take away the car and kick me out of the house. I just want to be independent, and if other people my age can pay for their own shit, then I should be able to as well. The fact that I can't is fucking humiliating.
I hate taking money from my parents. If they had money to give, I'd feel better about it. But they make me feel guilty about every dollar. I am dependent on them and yet still broke. It's the worst of both worlds. The worst part is I can't even become easily independent because the car I drive is in my dad's name. Again, I'd feel better about that if it were a nice car. Other kids' parents buy them brand new cars. My sister's car was bought new, by my parents. My girlfriend bought her car herself, new. One of my friends just got a 2011 from her parents. And I'm still driving an old piece of junk that my dad traded for some stone tile. Like I said, it's the worst of both worlds. I have to follow my parents' commands because they can just take away the car and kick me out of the house. I just want to be independent, and if other people my age can pay for their own shit, then I should be able to as well. The fact that I can't is fucking humiliating.