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May 10, 2009 23:12

hello old friend. it's been some time hasn't it? i miss you dearly yet don't seem to have to same motivation i used to have to write to you. this saddens me. so much has been going on and i have failed to keep you in the know. i've been trying for about a week now to conjure up the writer in me and fall back into my old routine but i have been rather unsuccessful.. :( today was a long one. got up at 6:30 then fell back asleep till 7 then got up and went hiking with my mom. almost two miles ascended 300 feet then descended 300 feet. then went and got lunch at whole foods from my sister at which time work called asking me to cover a shift on top of the shift i was already scheduled. so i went in at 1 and closed(10) when i was only supposed to work 5 to close. so i'm happy about the hours but my feet kinda hurt. and i'm really hungry and wasn't about to make myself food before i left. but the girl i closed with and i scrubbed all the baseboards and floors which included moving a lot of heavy furniture and shit. honestly i don't get paid enough to care that much about my job...so i'm pretty happy that school starts the 26th. that'll be good for me. a nice distraction from all the crap going on that i don't care to deal with at the moment. starting a new side job thing tomorrow. fairly excited about that. laying flagstone and brick/tile in someones backyard making like $30/hr or something....i really don't know the details and really don't care. it gets me out of the house and doing something physical. got prospect on a new real job too. some mail thing paying $11/hr. gotta look more into that one. a certain someone is back into my life after a rather bold apology on my behalf and it's strange, something's changed since. i feel better like some kind of weight has been lifted by this happening. either way, i'm not letting it happen again. i've decided to take my wiener piercings out. i'm just not happy with them. now to figure out how to get them out. i broke up with justin a week ago. he came over last night to get his stuff from my house and wouldn't even look at me. then i asked him for a hug and he started crying. i didn't know what to do. i felt like shit. but i'm sticking with my decision. i think i got together with him thinking about what he wanted. i felt kinda pressured into it. and it's time i thought of what i want. cause that is ultimately number one priority. and i know this is going to suck for him for a while but if we're meant to be together we will find each other in that way again. i was just growing very unhappy in the relationship and things didn't seem to be getting better or that they would. the shitty thing is i think all the friends i've made because of him will drop me in a heartbeat for this. oh well, i guess that just shows what kind of people they are. well it's been a long day and i've barely eaten. i'm off.
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