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I'm really doing well... when Erik isn't around. I hate being around him, I hate listening to him. He is so transparent to me, I mean I have heard him say essentially the same things many times before and I know exactly what's behind it or what's coming. The stupid part is he is still lying to himself, and I just want to slap him. I really wish I were the kind of person that could be ok with leaving and losing all contact with him... I have considered it, because quite honestly he deserves it and I never want Doll to date anyone like him. I do want her to have contact with his family though,and they don't now that he is as scummy as he is so they would be mean about it.
To be completely honest I want to tell his family everything he has done to me, I want them to know. Mostly for selfish purposes but then there is the big issue of him needing help, and quite honestly if they don't know the full extent of the problems they can't fully support him as he tries to fix himself. For instance; His mother pushing him to go on anti-depressants when he was depressed last winter. If she had known that he was drinking himself stupid, cheating on me and treating me like shit (causes for most of the depression) she would have seen that anti-depressants would probably just make an even worse problem. If he had taken her advice and gone on anti depressants, I firmly believe he would be dead right now, or on his way very quickly.
To be completely honest I want to tell his family everything he has done to me, I want them to know. Mostly for selfish purposes but then there is the big issue of him needing help, and quite honestly if they don't know the full extent of the problems they can't fully support him as he tries to fix himself. For instance; His mother pushing him to go on anti-depressants when he was depressed last winter. If she had known that he was drinking himself stupid, cheating on me and treating me like shit (causes for most of the depression) she would have seen that anti-depressants would probably just make an even worse problem. If he had taken her advice and gone on anti depressants, I firmly believe he would be dead right now, or on his way very quickly.