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I just got off the phone with Amber....
I miss her sooooo much!
I don't even know the words to say, she is my bestest friend. I hate the fact that she lives so far away...I just wish that I could go back to 8th grade. Things would be all better then. 8th grade was an awesome year! There were so many firsts with Amber...like donaldson, and many others. I had so much fun going over to her house everyday and doing kareoke, talking about josh, being stupid, and so many other things. And if I wasnt at her house, we were on the phone....But, now it's different. We can't stay on the phone for hours at a time because then the phone bill will be extremly high. I hate how that everytime her and I talk I always end up crying. I miss having my best friend here all time and avalible when I need to talk to her. It seems like were drifting apart. Today was the first time in about almost a month that I have talked to her...it just doesn't seem right. I want whats best for her but I dont care if I'm being selfish but I just want to have my best friend here with me through highschool. I had kim, and I still kind of do, but now she goes to CDO. I feel like I have no one...
I just kinda bounce around at lunch and I never fully feal welcome. I just wish that things in life didn't happen this way. I hate it! I know Im always going to be here for my friends and I know that they'll be there for me but sometimes....I need more than that. I just wish that my Number One Best Friend didn't live so far away from me....
I miss her sooooo much!
I don't even know the words to say, she is my bestest friend. I hate the fact that she lives so far away...I just wish that I could go back to 8th grade. Things would be all better then. 8th grade was an awesome year! There were so many firsts with Amber...like donaldson, and many others. I had so much fun going over to her house everyday and doing kareoke, talking about josh, being stupid, and so many other things. And if I wasnt at her house, we were on the phone....But, now it's different. We can't stay on the phone for hours at a time because then the phone bill will be extremly high. I hate how that everytime her and I talk I always end up crying. I miss having my best friend here all time and avalible when I need to talk to her. It seems like were drifting apart. Today was the first time in about almost a month that I have talked to her...it just doesn't seem right. I want whats best for her but I dont care if I'm being selfish but I just want to have my best friend here with me through highschool. I had kim, and I still kind of do, but now she goes to CDO. I feel like I have no one...
I just kinda bounce around at lunch and I never fully feal welcome. I just wish that things in life didn't happen this way. I hate it! I know Im always going to be here for my friends and I know that they'll be there for me but sometimes....I need more than that. I just wish that my Number One Best Friend didn't live so far away from me....