a few answers
I don't know if I'm happy with my life. There are so many things that were going well, but not I dont even know where they are going. I have some good friends, and i feel like i lost some, and i feel kinda alone.
God, I wish I kne where i was going with my life. I want to finish school, but I'm sucking at that, i feel bad, I've had so much shit going on in my life thats close to home, and that just fucks with me. I just want to do well, I have a good feel about next semester though, being clutch will be good! Thankfully I have a next semester again...I can't fuck this up, and I won't
Who Makes Me Happy? My family, I felt really good at home this year. My dad and i got along really well this time around, we didnt fight once, and it was just a good feeling. I think it's good that I go to school far away, and can only see him i few times a year (kinda weird to say about your father, but whatever works i guess). Sometimes I feel like the reasons why we didnt get along is because I remember him a lot of one of his younger brothers that ended up well off, and my dad kinda didnt. atleast thats what people say, that i remind them a lot of uncle chris. my little brother and sister are too young to even know him, he moved to Hawaii after divorcing his wife. Carol makes me happy. She reminds me a lot of my mom, and I love carol to death because I know I can come to her with anything, and she'll be there to listen and support me. I am thankful everyday for the family and friends that i have, and for those who openly support me. I know others support me, but its not so hard to complete the difficult tasks when someone is behind you.
I miss so much. I miss summer, and the beach, and being held at night. I miss late night calls that last well past 3am, which will be the time when i finish this entry. I miss being able to just smile for no reason, but i guess i realize i dont have a reason to, and no one else smiles for no reason, so why should i? Kind of a bitter way to look at things, but I guess in time what is good becomes old and bitter, and the only thing that stays the same is change. I miss my Pep more than anything. It has been 2 christmas' that he hasnt been able to attend. God i miss him, I regret not saying goodbye to him, and every year just reminds me that I was too much of an asshole to say hi, or bye...
"I'm new and improved with even less to lose"
God, I wish I kne where i was going with my life. I want to finish school, but I'm sucking at that, i feel bad, I've had so much shit going on in my life thats close to home, and that just fucks with me. I just want to do well, I have a good feel about next semester though, being clutch will be good! Thankfully I have a next semester again...I can't fuck this up, and I won't
Who Makes Me Happy? My family, I felt really good at home this year. My dad and i got along really well this time around, we didnt fight once, and it was just a good feeling. I think it's good that I go to school far away, and can only see him i few times a year (kinda weird to say about your father, but whatever works i guess). Sometimes I feel like the reasons why we didnt get along is because I remember him a lot of one of his younger brothers that ended up well off, and my dad kinda didnt. atleast thats what people say, that i remind them a lot of uncle chris. my little brother and sister are too young to even know him, he moved to Hawaii after divorcing his wife. Carol makes me happy. She reminds me a lot of my mom, and I love carol to death because I know I can come to her with anything, and she'll be there to listen and support me. I am thankful everyday for the family and friends that i have, and for those who openly support me. I know others support me, but its not so hard to complete the difficult tasks when someone is behind you.
I miss so much. I miss summer, and the beach, and being held at night. I miss late night calls that last well past 3am, which will be the time when i finish this entry. I miss being able to just smile for no reason, but i guess i realize i dont have a reason to, and no one else smiles for no reason, so why should i? Kind of a bitter way to look at things, but I guess in time what is good becomes old and bitter, and the only thing that stays the same is change. I miss my Pep more than anything. It has been 2 christmas' that he hasnt been able to attend. God i miss him, I regret not saying goodbye to him, and every year just reminds me that I was too much of an asshole to say hi, or bye...
"I'm new and improved with even less to lose"