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i dont fuckin understand why every little thing that happends is my fault...and i always get blaimed for why we dont talk...it doesnt make sense...i mean honestly...when i told you that about the el kid you could have just said oh that sux...instead of saying why do you care neways...why wouldnt i care...seriously...im sure you would feel the same way...if you were put in that situation...
"Why is something bad or wrong always going on in my life? i mean do i really deserve that? obviously i guess i do..."
do you think bad shit doesnt happen to anyone else besides you? think about it....
also...it pisses me off soooo fuckin much that you keep saying that i just randomly said fuck off seriously...you were giving me an attitue....you said...."fine, dont go but dont even say we didnt invite you" i mean how is that not attitude...then you go and put ur away message up so i said you kno what fuck off....i think it was appropriate....
i fuckin cant stand how marta takes her side all the time.... it always fuckin ends up being my fault...just because im me i guess....i always get blaimed for it all....and always am the *cause*....no one even cares seriously....why couldnt you have just said that sux that the el kid isnt talking to you instead of goin on and on about why i shouldnt care....and why couldnt marta just say...yea ash should have just said that sucked...instead of trying to be a psychotrist and solve everything....i just dont understand sometimes....
life is just stupid....and do you actually think a friendship should be based around making up after i fight...? no i dont think so...and dont go and say well your the one blah blah blah...because it isnt all me...
and no i do not apparently know whats goin on...
and how do you kno that shit is going on with me...
and i just cant stand ppl at times...and for some reason the furthur away...the better i feel...
moving is the best option...
*take this to heart and stab a knife in it*
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