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so last night anita and i fought.
i was promoted to drum major of CCPD (which i dont know if i will be able to do...depends on what my doctor says) when i got to my truck, anita (basically) said that i had ruined any chance of her having fun. that she had joined the band so her mom could see her, and now she cant invite her mom b/c if she sees me there they will fight.
what i say is WHY does she try to please that woman? i have gotten calls late at night with her crying her eyes out over some bitchy thing her mom has said. her mom would rather her fit in her mold of perfection than see her own daughter happy! she treats anita as if she were 5 years old, not the 22 year old intelligent woman she is! since separating from her father, its seems that shes become more and more bitchy, and anita seems to bear the brunt of that, and i'm tired of it...
she says all she has is family. well what is her father? every time he sees her upset, he wants to know whats wrong. he wants her to be happy. he doesnt control where, when, and what she can do, as long as she is safe. she doesnt have to lie to him.
he is a real parent, and more of a father than i have ever had.
i told her i would quit orchestra. she got mad at me. she wants her alone time, and orchestra would give that to her.
i mean...i cant play at the level they have me playing. the bass i'm playing is a piece of shit. the conductor they have is a bitch.
i told her that she needs to make herself happy. i told her to choose between us or her mother.
and now she is upset at me.
whenever i say 'i love you' she says she doesnt know how to respond.
which makes me think that she doesnt love me...and that kills me inside.
i want my nita back....
i was promoted to drum major of CCPD (which i dont know if i will be able to do...depends on what my doctor says) when i got to my truck, anita (basically) said that i had ruined any chance of her having fun. that she had joined the band so her mom could see her, and now she cant invite her mom b/c if she sees me there they will fight.
what i say is WHY does she try to please that woman? i have gotten calls late at night with her crying her eyes out over some bitchy thing her mom has said. her mom would rather her fit in her mold of perfection than see her own daughter happy! she treats anita as if she were 5 years old, not the 22 year old intelligent woman she is! since separating from her father, its seems that shes become more and more bitchy, and anita seems to bear the brunt of that, and i'm tired of it...
she says all she has is family. well what is her father? every time he sees her upset, he wants to know whats wrong. he wants her to be happy. he doesnt control where, when, and what she can do, as long as she is safe. she doesnt have to lie to him.
he is a real parent, and more of a father than i have ever had.
i told her i would quit orchestra. she got mad at me. she wants her alone time, and orchestra would give that to her.
i mean...i cant play at the level they have me playing. the bass i'm playing is a piece of shit. the conductor they have is a bitch.
i told her that she needs to make herself happy. i told her to choose between us or her mother.
and now she is upset at me.
whenever i say 'i love you' she says she doesnt know how to respond.
which makes me think that she doesnt love me...and that kills me inside.
i want my nita back....