I don't post here as much as I should
I used to consider myself a good person. Now I occasionally ask myself if I've become evil.
And it's not for wanting to destroy people. (which admittedly on occasion has its allure) It's simply because I've decided that I'm tired of stupid people.
I don't mean stupid in the case of someone without the faculties to think. I mean stupid in the case where they do have the faculties to think.. and DON'T.
I'm tired of people who get so wrapped up in believing in their own character flaws; that they use them as an excuse to lambast others to make themselves look better and more victimized.
Recently I was accused of sexual harassment for hitting on someone in my religious group. Now... ignoring the fact that our religious groups is a group based on sexual magick... the accusation is beyond ridiculous.
This story however... That's not the point.
The point is... I did like the person at one time. I saw them as both an intellectual and sexual being at one time. The person is sexual in the way they act and they are aware of it. They just didn't want me to acknowledge it. The person has made a huge overdrawn case about it. They now demand that I show them respect. As they now feel that I have acted disrespectfully towards them.
And I wonder if I'm a 'bad' person because any respect that I did have.. that's now gone. Personally, I just don't give a crap about the person.
At one time... A tumble? Maybe. a make out session... maybe. Philosophical, intellectual discussion? Maybe. But over time... I saw a grown-up child. Someone who wanted be loved and adored but at a distance. Someone who could pick and choose as she pleased. And most importantly to always be in control of all things to the fault of mouthing off at the people who she deemed not worthy to disagree with her.
Now? Now I just don't give a rats ass about her. There's been the requisite de-friending and vicious posts made on both sides. (case in point) Albeit.. the vicious post on the other side was made behind the friend filter. I just put mine publicly in the journal that no one really knows about.
But the truth of the matter is... I just don't care. The person adds nothing to my life. No value. They were a shiny thing for a while. But the drama and the personal issues are just dross.
I find myself wanting more and more to write people off because they just aren't conducive to my growth as a person.
Granted, each and everyone will be glad to tell you how horrible a person I am. Because I won't let them have their temper tantrums, and demands of supplicant worship.
Sorry. Homey don' play that game.
Respect to me means we're equals as people.
(Well, as long as we don't already have an agreement that you're wearing my collar)
And it's not for wanting to destroy people. (which admittedly on occasion has its allure) It's simply because I've decided that I'm tired of stupid people.
I don't mean stupid in the case of someone without the faculties to think. I mean stupid in the case where they do have the faculties to think.. and DON'T.
I'm tired of people who get so wrapped up in believing in their own character flaws; that they use them as an excuse to lambast others to make themselves look better and more victimized.
Recently I was accused of sexual harassment for hitting on someone in my religious group. Now... ignoring the fact that our religious groups is a group based on sexual magick... the accusation is beyond ridiculous.
This story however... That's not the point.
The point is... I did like the person at one time. I saw them as both an intellectual and sexual being at one time. The person is sexual in the way they act and they are aware of it. They just didn't want me to acknowledge it. The person has made a huge overdrawn case about it. They now demand that I show them respect. As they now feel that I have acted disrespectfully towards them.
And I wonder if I'm a 'bad' person because any respect that I did have.. that's now gone. Personally, I just don't give a crap about the person.
At one time... A tumble? Maybe. a make out session... maybe. Philosophical, intellectual discussion? Maybe. But over time... I saw a grown-up child. Someone who wanted be loved and adored but at a distance. Someone who could pick and choose as she pleased. And most importantly to always be in control of all things to the fault of mouthing off at the people who she deemed not worthy to disagree with her.
Now? Now I just don't give a rats ass about her. There's been the requisite de-friending and vicious posts made on both sides. (case in point) Albeit.. the vicious post on the other side was made behind the friend filter. I just put mine publicly in the journal that no one really knows about.
But the truth of the matter is... I just don't care. The person adds nothing to my life. No value. They were a shiny thing for a while. But the drama and the personal issues are just dross.
I find myself wanting more and more to write people off because they just aren't conducive to my growth as a person.
Granted, each and everyone will be glad to tell you how horrible a person I am. Because I won't let them have their temper tantrums, and demands of supplicant worship.
Sorry. Homey don' play that game.
Respect to me means we're equals as people.
(Well, as long as we don't already have an agreement that you're wearing my collar)