The Secrets Rufus Barma Doesn't Want You To Know
He loves to force people to do things they’d rather not do. The more flustered they get, the more he wants to dominate and humiliate them. This has made for some interesting moments between him and Reim “easily flustered” Lunettes.
Secretly though, what Rufus really wants is to be dominated. He wants to be exposed as the vulnerable human he doesn’t want to admit he really is. Which is part of why he really loves Sheryl. She sees this inner need, and is happy to humiliate and degrade him, even in front of other people.
Though he does indeed love knowledge, it is equally important that he maintain a reputation as being One in the Know. It’s all part of the façade he fantasizes about casting off someday.
He smokes a hookah, but will only do so in private, because he doesn’t want anyone to see his lips press around something in such a suggestive manner. If someone saw that, it would hint that he is a sexual being, and he wouldn’t want to admit that to anyone.
The caterpillar man may not have dozens of feet but he does have dozens of shoes. He gets an erotic charge out of having them shined while he’s wearing them.
The man would be mortified if anyone ever saw him in the bathroom, doing anything, even just washing his face. He locks the bathroom door even when no one is around.
All of this repression and fear of exposing himself comes out at night in the form of fantasies. In his fantasies, he wants to do all the things he won’t allow himself to do in public. He wishes more than anything that someone would humiliate him so deeply that he might be permanently knocked off that toadstool pedestal of his. Then he could spend the rest of his days wrapped in a cocoon of sexual servitude.
His chain is capable of creating illusions; this is canon. But I imagine that Rufus occasionally uses his chain’s abilities to create fantasies for his own self-pleasure. The most erotic moment of this self-pleasuring is when he imagines himself being caught in the act of doing those very things that would embarrass him most. The number one person he secretly wants to walk in on him is Xerxes Break. He wishes Xerxes would walk in on him masturbating, promptly use Mad Hatter to crush his illusions and then fuck him up the ass, preferably with the wide end of his cane.
One time he ate psilocybin mushrooms with Sheryl. He hallucinated her wrinkles away and imagined the white-haired woman was actually Xerxes. Luckily for him, he was unable to get it up that night, so he didn’t have to suffer the embarrassment of calling out Xerxes’ name when they fucked.
There’s a fanfic in here somewhere in all this, I just have to tease it out…and I’m taking requests.
Secretly though, what Rufus really wants is to be dominated. He wants to be exposed as the vulnerable human he doesn’t want to admit he really is. Which is part of why he really loves Sheryl. She sees this inner need, and is happy to humiliate and degrade him, even in front of other people.
Though he does indeed love knowledge, it is equally important that he maintain a reputation as being One in the Know. It’s all part of the façade he fantasizes about casting off someday.
He smokes a hookah, but will only do so in private, because he doesn’t want anyone to see his lips press around something in such a suggestive manner. If someone saw that, it would hint that he is a sexual being, and he wouldn’t want to admit that to anyone.
The caterpillar man may not have dozens of feet but he does have dozens of shoes. He gets an erotic charge out of having them shined while he’s wearing them.
The man would be mortified if anyone ever saw him in the bathroom, doing anything, even just washing his face. He locks the bathroom door even when no one is around.
All of this repression and fear of exposing himself comes out at night in the form of fantasies. In his fantasies, he wants to do all the things he won’t allow himself to do in public. He wishes more than anything that someone would humiliate him so deeply that he might be permanently knocked off that toadstool pedestal of his. Then he could spend the rest of his days wrapped in a cocoon of sexual servitude.
His chain is capable of creating illusions; this is canon. But I imagine that Rufus occasionally uses his chain’s abilities to create fantasies for his own self-pleasure. The most erotic moment of this self-pleasuring is when he imagines himself being caught in the act of doing those very things that would embarrass him most. The number one person he secretly wants to walk in on him is Xerxes Break. He wishes Xerxes would walk in on him masturbating, promptly use Mad Hatter to crush his illusions and then fuck him up the ass, preferably with the wide end of his cane.
One time he ate psilocybin mushrooms with Sheryl. He hallucinated her wrinkles away and imagined the white-haired woman was actually Xerxes. Luckily for him, he was unable to get it up that night, so he didn’t have to suffer the embarrassment of calling out Xerxes’ name when they fucked.
There’s a fanfic in here somewhere in all this, I just have to tease it out…and I’m taking requests.