What the fuck were we thinking?
Where do I begin?
I don't really know what to write today...I usually have some kind of idea or direction to head in when I begin writing...even if it's only a vague one, but today, my head's been everywhere. I've thought of so many different events from the past like 4 years, that I'm left kinda spinning in place watching everything blur by.
I'll just try to get some random thoughts off...they may not be coherent or be in order..or have to do with each other..but whatever..
Do I come on strong?
I think I do. I don't think I mean to either. I mean, I pride myself on being able to get girls. Any guy who gets girls does. This is gonna come out sounding more conceited than it should, but I don't really care what you think, so...
Do I come on strong? Yeah, I guess I do. I've lost a lot of love for the chase, and the catch, and the whole process as a whole. I kinda try to see how fast I can get a hang out, and most of the time, I miss out on all the fun parts...like the conversations. I used to have conversations that lasted for hours with different girls I met. Just flowing conversations where you just talk about everything and nothing. And now...I run out of things to say, and kinda just ask em to hang out...without really knowing me, or without me even making much of an effort. Then I forget about em for a while...and realize I haven't really gotten to know them. And that saddens me. I lost the ability to connect with so many people. I mean, I'm still good at it in person, and maybe that's why I want the hang out as bad as I do sometimes. Cause I just feel I'll make a better impression that way.
Am I heading in the right direction?
I can't seem to figure out what I want in life...or if I'm making the right choices....or even if I'm in the general ballpark really. Like for instance, I don't even really know where I'm heading in this post...and that's a bad sign of general decision making.
What do I need?
I think there's a disparity between what I need and what I want. I can't figure out either at this point...but I know there's definitely a gap. I honestly, just want someone who changes my outlook on life. Who questions things. Even if they don't know the answers. I want a cool person to help me question life. And basically I just need to find 'em.
I don't know where anything of that came from, or where it was heading...but I'm thinking what I need right now....is a good night of sleep.
Mac.
I don't really know what to write today...I usually have some kind of idea or direction to head in when I begin writing...even if it's only a vague one, but today, my head's been everywhere. I've thought of so many different events from the past like 4 years, that I'm left kinda spinning in place watching everything blur by.
I'll just try to get some random thoughts off...they may not be coherent or be in order..or have to do with each other..but whatever..
Do I come on strong?
I think I do. I don't think I mean to either. I mean, I pride myself on being able to get girls. Any guy who gets girls does. This is gonna come out sounding more conceited than it should, but I don't really care what you think, so...
Do I come on strong? Yeah, I guess I do. I've lost a lot of love for the chase, and the catch, and the whole process as a whole. I kinda try to see how fast I can get a hang out, and most of the time, I miss out on all the fun parts...like the conversations. I used to have conversations that lasted for hours with different girls I met. Just flowing conversations where you just talk about everything and nothing. And now...I run out of things to say, and kinda just ask em to hang out...without really knowing me, or without me even making much of an effort. Then I forget about em for a while...and realize I haven't really gotten to know them. And that saddens me. I lost the ability to connect with so many people. I mean, I'm still good at it in person, and maybe that's why I want the hang out as bad as I do sometimes. Cause I just feel I'll make a better impression that way.
Am I heading in the right direction?
I can't seem to figure out what I want in life...or if I'm making the right choices....or even if I'm in the general ballpark really. Like for instance, I don't even really know where I'm heading in this post...and that's a bad sign of general decision making.
What do I need?
I think there's a disparity between what I need and what I want. I can't figure out either at this point...but I know there's definitely a gap. I honestly, just want someone who changes my outlook on life. Who questions things. Even if they don't know the answers. I want a cool person to help me question life. And basically I just need to find 'em.
I don't know where anything of that came from, or where it was heading...but I'm thinking what I need right now....is a good night of sleep.
Mac.