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I feel like those around me are tiptoeing on eggshells. Mostly, just my mom and my dad. Well, actually, it's really more of my mom than anybody. I'm always asked if I'm okay, how I'm doing. Do you expect me to be fine? Do you expect me to be okay with all of this - seeing the boxes around the house and things missing? Of course I'm doing bad. Of course I'm upset, but I don't want to show it every waking moment. They say they want me to talk, to be open, but I'm sure if she saw what was going on in my head and how I really felt, she wouldn't want to hear it.
Mom's moving saturday, Valetine's Day. I'm going to try and get out of the house; dad's going to see (I think) if I can go up to Nicole's again. As long as I'm not here and I'm not involved.
On a not so depressing note, this weekend was really good. Yesterday and Saturday I was at a retreat with my church and we went up to the same camp that we did for winter camp. That sounded.. weird. Anyway. It snowed ALL DAY yesterday. It was so beautiful. :D It was my first snowfall ever, too. My friend got some pictures, and I have some on my phone, I'm sure they'll be posted.. somewhere. At some point. I left late last night with a group of about.. 6 others. I kind of was supposed to stay today, but it was a "fun" day and the larger group was going snowboarding - heck no for me. :P Plus I need to go into physics tutoring because I bombed the test with a 60. Oops. Anyway, again - the weekend was good like I said. Everytime we had a "meeting", they had us do these interviews where we'd find someone we really didn't know well and we'd go back and forth with prepared questions. It was actually kind of fun - out of the like, 4 or 5 times we did it, I only met with one girl.
One guy I talked to, the last person I met, I'd actually met him before but he made me sit down anyway. He asked me when I got saved and I told him, and he was like "did you smoke a lot of pot?" and the way he said it was just so.. I don't know, like the way a little kid would. Very straightforward and in an innocent sort of way, even though he was a pothead himself before he became a Christian. It made me laugh.
We played MadGab, too. I was utterly amazing. Of course. ;)
That's it. I'm leaving at 12:30 to go to school and I'm still in my bathrobe and my hair's wrapped in a towel.
Toodles <3
Mom's moving saturday, Valetine's Day. I'm going to try and get out of the house; dad's going to see (I think) if I can go up to Nicole's again. As long as I'm not here and I'm not involved.
On a not so depressing note, this weekend was really good. Yesterday and Saturday I was at a retreat with my church and we went up to the same camp that we did for winter camp. That sounded.. weird. Anyway. It snowed ALL DAY yesterday. It was so beautiful. :D It was my first snowfall ever, too. My friend got some pictures, and I have some on my phone, I'm sure they'll be posted.. somewhere. At some point. I left late last night with a group of about.. 6 others. I kind of was supposed to stay today, but it was a "fun" day and the larger group was going snowboarding - heck no for me. :P Plus I need to go into physics tutoring because I bombed the test with a 60. Oops. Anyway, again - the weekend was good like I said. Everytime we had a "meeting", they had us do these interviews where we'd find someone we really didn't know well and we'd go back and forth with prepared questions. It was actually kind of fun - out of the like, 4 or 5 times we did it, I only met with one girl.
One guy I talked to, the last person I met, I'd actually met him before but he made me sit down anyway. He asked me when I got saved and I told him, and he was like "did you smoke a lot of pot?" and the way he said it was just so.. I don't know, like the way a little kid would. Very straightforward and in an innocent sort of way, even though he was a pothead himself before he became a Christian. It made me laugh.
We played MadGab, too. I was utterly amazing. Of course. ;)
That's it. I'm leaving at 12:30 to go to school and I'm still in my bathrobe and my hair's wrapped in a towel.
Toodles <3