What's Become of Greg?
You ever look back at your life and realize you messed a few things up? I don't live with regrets and I try not dwell on mistakes I made... but I know there are a lot of things I would change if I had the chance.
First of all, I probably would've chosen a different path after high school. I went to a private school and now I realize that it really didn't matter if I went to school at all. I loved Southern but I know I could've saved money and time by going to a state school like UCF or USF. I think a lot about what I'd do if I wasn't 300 grand in debt. Would I have a house already? I would miss the friends and memories I made at Southern but if I never made those memories I wouldn't really miss them would I?
Moving on, I also ponder how my life would change if I made better decisions in my love life. Every time I try to get close to someone I see the break up coming. It seems like I'd be smart enough to just stay away. I basically know at the beginning of the relationship how long that relationship will last and how it will end (good terms, bad terms, etc) but I walk right into the bad decision anyway. Would my life be different if I just decided to remain friends with many of those ladies or would I have missed out on those experiences and hated myself for it?
Speaking of relationships... what would have happened if I repaired a relationship with my father many years ago? Instead, I waited for him to take the first step. I just wonder if I could've forgiven him so many years ago. Instead I left the relationship at a standstill and continued in our mutual state of disdain. Again, with all of my family... could I care for them more than I do? Of course. Friends too for that matter. The truth is that I don't care about anyone enough to really change my life.
I'm trying now to become the person I want to be. Instead I've been going through some false motions of what I thought I should be based on those around me. Now I'm just gonna be the guy that I wanna be. People seem to like me more that way.
So, don't ask me to lighten up on the attitude or to stop being a real asshole. That's just who I am. I like being the guy with all the answers. Read something besides People and maybe you'll be able to hang with me. haha I like me better already.
The tone of this message is not supposed to be sad. I understand it's hard to tell when all you're reading is text. It's supposed to be encouraging and uplifting. I basically want to say that I'm finally learning to be happy. I'm learning that sometimes you have to do what you wanna do and not revolve yourself around other people. I've been censoring myself for far too long and I'm finally learning to just be Greg.
Perrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
First of all, I probably would've chosen a different path after high school. I went to a private school and now I realize that it really didn't matter if I went to school at all. I loved Southern but I know I could've saved money and time by going to a state school like UCF or USF. I think a lot about what I'd do if I wasn't 300 grand in debt. Would I have a house already? I would miss the friends and memories I made at Southern but if I never made those memories I wouldn't really miss them would I?
Moving on, I also ponder how my life would change if I made better decisions in my love life. Every time I try to get close to someone I see the break up coming. It seems like I'd be smart enough to just stay away. I basically know at the beginning of the relationship how long that relationship will last and how it will end (good terms, bad terms, etc) but I walk right into the bad decision anyway. Would my life be different if I just decided to remain friends with many of those ladies or would I have missed out on those experiences and hated myself for it?
Speaking of relationships... what would have happened if I repaired a relationship with my father many years ago? Instead, I waited for him to take the first step. I just wonder if I could've forgiven him so many years ago. Instead I left the relationship at a standstill and continued in our mutual state of disdain. Again, with all of my family... could I care for them more than I do? Of course. Friends too for that matter. The truth is that I don't care about anyone enough to really change my life.
I'm trying now to become the person I want to be. Instead I've been going through some false motions of what I thought I should be based on those around me. Now I'm just gonna be the guy that I wanna be. People seem to like me more that way.
So, don't ask me to lighten up on the attitude or to stop being a real asshole. That's just who I am. I like being the guy with all the answers. Read something besides People and maybe you'll be able to hang with me. haha I like me better already.
The tone of this message is not supposed to be sad. I understand it's hard to tell when all you're reading is text. It's supposed to be encouraging and uplifting. I basically want to say that I'm finally learning to be happy. I'm learning that sometimes you have to do what you wanna do and not revolve yourself around other people. I've been censoring myself for far too long and I'm finally learning to just be Greg.
Perrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr