Winning the lottery will save me one day.
what have i become? i'm so disappointed in myself.
i'm NOTHING i thought i would be. a couple years ago, i didn't think i'd be where i am now.
ooh. fucking community college honor student. internships at AT&A, Interscope and MGM. whatever. it doesn't mean shit. everyone's out there making money.
i have plans to transfer...but then what? take extra classes, not have really anything of a summer, just to get IN to a fucking university and get a degree to use for what?... to stick up my ass?? it's been this nasty hell where day-to-day i live by the calendar, going to classes, trying to network, doing everything i can to make my life better and see barely any progress. is it wrong for me to want to finally be successful in anything in my life?
i am so tired of everything.
god, i just need to unwind.
i'm NOTHING i thought i would be. a couple years ago, i didn't think i'd be where i am now.
ooh. fucking community college honor student. internships at AT&A, Interscope and MGM. whatever. it doesn't mean shit. everyone's out there making money.
i have plans to transfer...but then what? take extra classes, not have really anything of a summer, just to get IN to a fucking university and get a degree to use for what?... to stick up my ass?? it's been this nasty hell where day-to-day i live by the calendar, going to classes, trying to network, doing everything i can to make my life better and see barely any progress. is it wrong for me to want to finally be successful in anything in my life?
i am so tired of everything.
god, i just need to unwind.