Meh people still really really suck

[golfonthebeach4]

I can't believe i wasted so much time thinking it was the first time i wasnt wasting my time. Never Again dude, never remembering that, but i can't forget and im trying SO HARD!!! Im broken. Haha and freaken Emo would you listen to me???? you would be too, things are a lot better than they were tuesday, but a lot worse than they were last friday.... im so confused and retarded. So much has happened i can't change but i wish i could, if i would've just done ONE THING everything would be perfectly fine and thats the part that killls me sooooo mcuh! i never realized that what we do can honestly affect us for the rest of our lives, but now i do. IM going to stop being emo!!! okay but its hard.... at least i have keiths baseball hat on my head. Ive found out there are certain people who will love me always and forever no matter what, and thats tiffany veschio, tiffany hinchey, keithy, norina!, allie, and scott. I feel like a lot of people aren't who they say they are, i've realized a lot of lies that i thought were truths... and i just feel so hurt and broken i can't even comprehend why. Not everything is what it seems, once it is im sure it'll be 10 times better... but right now i've never felt this bad. AND to top it all off im grounded for using my cellphone in class!!!! you'd think they'd just take away my cellfone or something... but no 2 weeks no friends no life... thats helpful NOW cuz all i can do is freaken think about it htere is nothing to take my mind off of allll this stupid pointless crap! As jd would say i got sucked in... like a vaccum sucks thigns up, and you just can't get out. I want out. I dont like this. Ive changed soo much in so many different ways it freaken scares me. i never thought something like this could happen to me. BUT today is actually a good day because i dont have to work on my PPA project, i just wish last night i could've been cinderella... you'd understand if you'd talked to me last night. hahah i need a fairy godmother!!!

Sorry for the emo, i can't help it, things hurt sometimes... im so broken.