too much action
ok so the end of this school year is closing in ... and i was supposed to leave ....
hold the presses.. why is there a cat walking around in my courtyard?? this is a secluded campus.. how did it get here.. is it hungry? should i go talk to it ... oh well.. that was a pleasent supprise...
anyway.. i was supposed to leave here on tuesday.. but tomorrow i am taking a train home. My Pop Pop died yesterday.. may 7th 2004.. i dont even know how to feel right now.. i mean .. im hurting really bad.. but all i can think of is like trying to block it out.. i dunno .. i love him very very much .. and i will miss him ... i guess all i have now are our memories.. he lives in VA so i have to take a train back home . then drive to VA... my mom is really upset.. and i know shes needs me to be there for her.. i love her very much . and i know its killing her..
so i have kind of an abrupt ending to this horrible freshman year here at Uinversity of Hartford.. im not coming back as far as i can see it.. Mercer County Community College next year... :( poo... i always hated that school ... it just seems like its a layover from highschool .. 13th grade if u will for kids that dont wanna leave home.. dont care.. and cant live outside of highschool.... damnit.. im stuck .. but i have to do it now.. i have to build up my GPA . get some credits .. then maybe ill transfer back.. or even to Stockton College.. trav mentioned it .. and at the time it seems smart and like a good idea.. i dont really know how that will flop out... oh well..
ok well im on the verge of not sleeping tonight.. i just cant sleep.. i need to catch my 1pm train.. and im incompetant... boo..
ugh.. i am tired.. i dunno.. this week has been strange.. im bored..
but i have nothing else to say ..
oh well ... maybe ill knock out.. for an hour or 2 .. BUT NO MORE.. .. :( life sucks..
i have to move into my dads house.. which seems cool because hes my pops i love him .. and hes an awesome dad/guy/friend.. but i dont think i wanna be there right now.. hes currently in a relationship w. this girl hes know for like 16 years from work.. and they're all happy and kissy and shit.. i dunno what to make of it.. pops talking about marrying her.. but shes got a little girl.. 7 or 8 .. maybe 6 .. and i dont want to be there for that.. esp bc she doesnt have a bedroom for herself. ohh btw they moved in.. somehow .. dad says i invited them over one weekend .. or something.. and Dina (new gf) just kept packing her bags.. and staying over.. i dunno my dad has a HUGH heart.. he couldnt tell her no way ... i dunno he seems to always get himself stuck in situations where his heart gets in trouble .. hmm sounds like me.. blah .. im becoming my parents.. grrr
well that was outta nowhere..
whatever.. ill be home tomorrow at 6pm... then im leaving early sunday morning to drive to VA for the viewing :( .. then monday is the funeral.. poo ... im gonna cry .. and i havent cried in a long time .. maybe it will be good.. :-/
oh so then im coming back ... ? monday night? or maybe tuesday .. and then driving here ... back to UHa.. and packing up all my shit .. and getting the fuck outta here..
im gonna miss everyone here.. i met some really awesome people and great friends.. ill be back as frequent as possible.. always a good time here at UHa.. to much of it at som epoints . but now im rambling..
so ill be home like for good... tuesday night.. maybe wednesday... i dunno for sure.. wow i just realized that this is gonna be a traveling weekend.. train to/from VA .. back to CT .. damnit..
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RIP Robert Beaston Sr. 5.7.04
hold the presses.. why is there a cat walking around in my courtyard?? this is a secluded campus.. how did it get here.. is it hungry? should i go talk to it ... oh well.. that was a pleasent supprise...
anyway.. i was supposed to leave here on tuesday.. but tomorrow i am taking a train home. My Pop Pop died yesterday.. may 7th 2004.. i dont even know how to feel right now.. i mean .. im hurting really bad.. but all i can think of is like trying to block it out.. i dunno .. i love him very very much .. and i will miss him ... i guess all i have now are our memories.. he lives in VA so i have to take a train back home . then drive to VA... my mom is really upset.. and i know shes needs me to be there for her.. i love her very much . and i know its killing her..
so i have kind of an abrupt ending to this horrible freshman year here at Uinversity of Hartford.. im not coming back as far as i can see it.. Mercer County Community College next year... :( poo... i always hated that school ... it just seems like its a layover from highschool .. 13th grade if u will for kids that dont wanna leave home.. dont care.. and cant live outside of highschool.... damnit.. im stuck .. but i have to do it now.. i have to build up my GPA . get some credits .. then maybe ill transfer back.. or even to Stockton College.. trav mentioned it .. and at the time it seems smart and like a good idea.. i dont really know how that will flop out... oh well..
ok well im on the verge of not sleeping tonight.. i just cant sleep.. i need to catch my 1pm train.. and im incompetant... boo..
ugh.. i am tired.. i dunno.. this week has been strange.. im bored..
but i have nothing else to say ..
oh well ... maybe ill knock out.. for an hour or 2 .. BUT NO MORE.. .. :( life sucks..
i have to move into my dads house.. which seems cool because hes my pops i love him .. and hes an awesome dad/guy/friend.. but i dont think i wanna be there right now.. hes currently in a relationship w. this girl hes know for like 16 years from work.. and they're all happy and kissy and shit.. i dunno what to make of it.. pops talking about marrying her.. but shes got a little girl.. 7 or 8 .. maybe 6 .. and i dont want to be there for that.. esp bc she doesnt have a bedroom for herself. ohh btw they moved in.. somehow .. dad says i invited them over one weekend .. or something.. and Dina (new gf) just kept packing her bags.. and staying over.. i dunno my dad has a HUGH heart.. he couldnt tell her no way ... i dunno he seems to always get himself stuck in situations where his heart gets in trouble .. hmm sounds like me.. blah .. im becoming my parents.. grrr
well that was outta nowhere..
whatever.. ill be home tomorrow at 6pm... then im leaving early sunday morning to drive to VA for the viewing :( .. then monday is the funeral.. poo ... im gonna cry .. and i havent cried in a long time .. maybe it will be good.. :-/
oh so then im coming back ... ? monday night? or maybe tuesday .. and then driving here ... back to UHa.. and packing up all my shit .. and getting the fuck outta here..
im gonna miss everyone here.. i met some really awesome people and great friends.. ill be back as frequent as possible.. always a good time here at UHa.. to much of it at som epoints . but now im rambling..
so ill be home like for good... tuesday night.. maybe wednesday... i dunno for sure.. wow i just realized that this is gonna be a traveling weekend.. train to/from VA .. back to CT .. damnit..
check
RIP Robert Beaston Sr. 5.7.04