Feeling down
I think I'll take better care of myself in 2007. With my new insurance I can not only get new glasses, but I can get a complete physical, and maybe even figure out why I can't get out of this funk I'm in. I'm unwilling to call it depression without talking to the psych at my office, but that's what I'm thinking it may be. I get tired earlier and earlier in the day, I'm grouchy half the time, I was informed last night that I get bitchy at the smallest things, even in public, and I never used to do these things. Even 3 years ago I could stay up and not get tired till 11 or later even when waking up at between 7 and 8, I was happy 99% of the times, I laughed every day, I wasn't bitchy and definetly not in public (and if I was once or twice I was informed and it didn't happen again). I used to enjoy everything (sex, painting, reading, writing) and now about the only thing that makes me happy is reading, sometimes, and being alone or on the internet with no one in the house. My housework has even slipped, a lot. And not just because I don't have time, I just don't want to do it.
I'll talk to Jason tonight, when he decides to come back, but he's a little mad at me right now cause I was snappy and bitchy two nights ago at him and he hadn't done anything to warrant it. I don't like that he's mad because I was tired and irritable, but then again if I've been like this for so long without realized how bad it really was, he has a point. I figured for awhile that maybe I'd have more energy after my surgery and after affects of that...but it's been a month and I still haven't any energy. Some days I do, but not others.
I'll talk to Jason tonight, when he decides to come back, but he's a little mad at me right now cause I was snappy and bitchy two nights ago at him and he hadn't done anything to warrant it. I don't like that he's mad because I was tired and irritable, but then again if I've been like this for so long without realized how bad it really was, he has a point. I figured for awhile that maybe I'd have more energy after my surgery and after affects of that...but it's been a month and I still haven't any energy. Some days I do, but not others.