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this morning i sent josh an angry email.
"I'm actually kind of pissed off about this whole thing. I just think that it's totally disrespectful of me and my feelings. You're trying to take the easy way out and avoid a confrontation, but for the sake of our friendship, you can't do that. You've done it before too and you can't ever do that to me again. If you have something important to say, you say it in person. And honestly there were a few things I wanted to talk to you about, but I was planning on waiting until you got back so we could have a real conversation face to face. If you don't want to talk to me on Tuesday when you get back, fine whatever, but I want to have a conversation with you when neither of us have been drinking, so you just have to promise me that you won't go out and have a bunch of drinks before we talk. I think that's important. I'm sorry if I sound angry or demanding, but this really did come from nowhere and it really does hurt. I didn't feel like anything was weird, certainly not weird enough to end anything, and I would have liked to know before you left that you were having problems with us. I had a really wonderful weekend, and now all I think about is this and it sucks. Please let me know when you do want to hang out and talk about stuff. You are still one of my best friends and I want to figure everything out."
he felt really bad. i think i've let him get away with way too much up until now, and he's not going to get away with it any more. i think things are going to be fine, at least for a while. i called him and we talked for a while, but not about this. he seemed cheerful and good.
one thing i really appreciate is that i met with our friend heather at slane and even though she loves josh to death, she's 100% on my side. she thinks josh is being a douche and that maybe i would be better off without him. and i like her because she is brutally honest. she also told me that for a 23 year old, i'm totally normal. so the problem is not me, because i'm normal. YAY! i have to eat food.
"I'm actually kind of pissed off about this whole thing. I just think that it's totally disrespectful of me and my feelings. You're trying to take the easy way out and avoid a confrontation, but for the sake of our friendship, you can't do that. You've done it before too and you can't ever do that to me again. If you have something important to say, you say it in person. And honestly there were a few things I wanted to talk to you about, but I was planning on waiting until you got back so we could have a real conversation face to face. If you don't want to talk to me on Tuesday when you get back, fine whatever, but I want to have a conversation with you when neither of us have been drinking, so you just have to promise me that you won't go out and have a bunch of drinks before we talk. I think that's important. I'm sorry if I sound angry or demanding, but this really did come from nowhere and it really does hurt. I didn't feel like anything was weird, certainly not weird enough to end anything, and I would have liked to know before you left that you were having problems with us. I had a really wonderful weekend, and now all I think about is this and it sucks. Please let me know when you do want to hang out and talk about stuff. You are still one of my best friends and I want to figure everything out."
he felt really bad. i think i've let him get away with way too much up until now, and he's not going to get away with it any more. i think things are going to be fine, at least for a while. i called him and we talked for a while, but not about this. he seemed cheerful and good.
one thing i really appreciate is that i met with our friend heather at slane and even though she loves josh to death, she's 100% on my side. she thinks josh is being a douche and that maybe i would be better off without him. and i like her because she is brutally honest. she also told me that for a 23 year old, i'm totally normal. so the problem is not me, because i'm normal. YAY! i have to eat food.