all is as it ever is (in an attempt to avoid any more moronic sports metaphors)
I thought about updating my blogging life to wordpress or something of that ilk, but I suppose if no one is reading anyways here nor there doesn't matter much. Wow, so that sounds like a cry for help--but it's not.
With graduation impending--hopefully, you know--I feel a little bit uprooted. I now that the end of school, of graduation is supposed to feel wonderful, but I'm lacking that warm fuzzy feeling that seemed to come along with graduating high school--or maybe that's the lack of booze this time around.
I feel like a lot of the opportunity that used to be here as sort of drifted further off, or maybe its just the residual guilt. I thought I would have reached a point, been someone different at this point in my life than I am but I find that I'm still sneaking around with my thoughts and feelings and lying and pretending. Is there ever a point as an adult where we feel confident in the decisions we're making?
I guess now that I'm ready to make a decision on my own. I can't spent forever complaining about the way my life has turned out because I didn't take a stand for what I want. I've never wanted all the money in the world, or even the most exotic lifestyle...I just want to live my own life. So, I'm doing grad school my way. I've applied to the one program I want a masters/certification program for teaching and if I get in--then I'm finally doing something I want in my life, and if I don't, maybe I need a face that It's time to man up and do something on my own, for myself.
With graduation impending--hopefully, you know--I feel a little bit uprooted. I now that the end of school, of graduation is supposed to feel wonderful, but I'm lacking that warm fuzzy feeling that seemed to come along with graduating high school--or maybe that's the lack of booze this time around.
I feel like a lot of the opportunity that used to be here as sort of drifted further off, or maybe its just the residual guilt. I thought I would have reached a point, been someone different at this point in my life than I am but I find that I'm still sneaking around with my thoughts and feelings and lying and pretending. Is there ever a point as an adult where we feel confident in the decisions we're making?
I guess now that I'm ready to make a decision on my own. I can't spent forever complaining about the way my life has turned out because I didn't take a stand for what I want. I've never wanted all the money in the world, or even the most exotic lifestyle...I just want to live my own life. So, I'm doing grad school my way. I've applied to the one program I want a masters/certification program for teaching and if I get in--then I'm finally doing something I want in my life, and if I don't, maybe I need a face that It's time to man up and do something on my own, for myself.