outside looking in
its an odd realization becoming an outsider to a group that you once fit in so perfectly. not good or bad, but... interesting... no longer do i share in their humor and our jokes arent the same. we have different stories and cant share in our experiences anymore.i feel like im not understood and that we've lost a once strong connection. everyone has to grow up and in doing so, some friendships grow apart. its a bittersweet feeling. i miss what we once had but i don't hope for it to return because i know it wont. i am happy for their successes and i am not jealous of what they have, for i have my own successes and my own happiness....
the past year (oct. 06- oct. 07) has been an experience. the 27th will mark one year that my parents have been gone. all i can say is that i have survived the past year. its great how just over a year ago i was doing great living in my old house getting to see my family everyday. now, im not talking to my mom and stepdad because of b.s. that is going on. who knew???
on the happier side of the fence, tuesday is kyle and my 4th anniversary:) i cant believe how important one person can be in someones life. he gives me meaning and helps me go on when i dont think i can. he is my everything. my world. my love.
the past year (oct. 06- oct. 07) has been an experience. the 27th will mark one year that my parents have been gone. all i can say is that i have survived the past year. its great how just over a year ago i was doing great living in my old house getting to see my family everyday. now, im not talking to my mom and stepdad because of b.s. that is going on. who knew???
on the happier side of the fence, tuesday is kyle and my 4th anniversary:) i cant believe how important one person can be in someones life. he gives me meaning and helps me go on when i dont think i can. he is my everything. my world. my love.