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FUCK THIS HUMANITIES PAPER. JUST, NO. FUCK IT. It is not worth my bashing my brains in over because I can't get it together long enough to slog through these revisions. Honestly, it's not that hard, but I can't even look at the fucking document without wanting to gouge my eye out with a cattle prod, so help me God. I don't know what it is.
I know, it's a recurring problem with me. I know I can't just blow it off. But for fuck's sake, I have other things I could be doing right now that would at least do me some good. I don't care how naïve or stupid or irresponsible this is of me, but if my parents or my teachers don't like that, that's just their goddamn problem. I'm fed up with doing their shit. GPA can kiss my fucking ass. I got a goddamn 1810 on my last practice SAT, so if that's any indication to what my still-pending score on the real thing may be, that's good enough.
I'm still sick, even after having this thing for over a week. I've been stressed as fuck. I'm dropping my one AP test, but now I gotta think about SAT subject tests. Classes are exhausting, people are exhausting, everything--save for maybe fucking free period and carpool--about school is hard for me to deal with. I can think of maybe one or two days in the past month when I've had something to look forward to there. I want the year to be over so I can, oh yeah, maybe get a move on with this driving shit that is WAAAAAAY fucking overdue, like, literally years now, since I'll actually bloody have time for both that and still feeling like I've had some time to relax on a day-to-day basis.
It just feels like I need to move the hell on with my life. I've been stuck in a rut too long; I need to get out there in the world, get a job, meet new people, just something to make my existence more than just a big waiting game for things to change.
And yes, before you ask, I am on my period. Just one of the many, many, many reasons of why I despise being female.
I know, it's a recurring problem with me. I know I can't just blow it off. But for fuck's sake, I have other things I could be doing right now that would at least do me some good. I don't care how naïve or stupid or irresponsible this is of me, but if my parents or my teachers don't like that, that's just their goddamn problem. I'm fed up with doing their shit. GPA can kiss my fucking ass. I got a goddamn 1810 on my last practice SAT, so if that's any indication to what my still-pending score on the real thing may be, that's good enough.
I'm still sick, even after having this thing for over a week. I've been stressed as fuck. I'm dropping my one AP test, but now I gotta think about SAT subject tests. Classes are exhausting, people are exhausting, everything--save for maybe fucking free period and carpool--about school is hard for me to deal with. I can think of maybe one or two days in the past month when I've had something to look forward to there. I want the year to be over so I can, oh yeah, maybe get a move on with this driving shit that is WAAAAAAY fucking overdue, like, literally years now, since I'll actually bloody have time for both that and still feeling like I've had some time to relax on a day-to-day basis.
It just feels like I need to move the hell on with my life. I've been stuck in a rut too long; I need to get out there in the world, get a job, meet new people, just something to make my existence more than just a big waiting game for things to change.
And yes, before you ask, I am on my period. Just one of the many, many, many reasons of why I despise being female.