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I know I never post here anymore so I don't expect many of you to actually read this. I just need to get some stuff off of my chest with the possibility of getting some support.
So much shit is going on in life right now. My roommate might have cervical cancer. My aunt has stage 3 out of 4 Melanoma (sp?) cancer. my other aunt just found out her husband has been having an affair. An uncle just came clean to our side of the family that the reason he's never been out to visit is because his wife hates us and thinks we're white trash low life scum and now she thinks he's no good too so they're probably getting divorced. I'm putting my cat to sleep on Friday becuase he's just so old and he poops and pees in the house now but not in his litter box. I think he's just going senile and losing his mind. it's breaking my heart up and I can't really talk about it. One of my best friends is seeing a psychologist and she won't talk to me about any of it. she lives in California so we don't talk often anyway but her mom told my mom and my mom told me. My friend Brian is in jail for shit from a DUI he got 3 years ago (he actually deserves it to be honest, but it still sucks having to go visit him in jail, I'm not a fan). Kevin won't leave me the fuck alone. Casey is home and he wants to see me all the time but he's not actually listening to me at all. I'm totally broke. I can't eat, my stomach just won't let me. my mom is drunk pretty much everytime I see her. everyone just seems to want something out of me I can't give them. I'm drained. I'm done. this probably doesn't seem like all that much stuff but the magnitude of some of it is just really too much to handle alone, let alone combined with everything else. I'm just starting to shut down. I want a break from life.
So much shit is going on in life right now. My roommate might have cervical cancer. My aunt has stage 3 out of 4 Melanoma (sp?) cancer. my other aunt just found out her husband has been having an affair. An uncle just came clean to our side of the family that the reason he's never been out to visit is because his wife hates us and thinks we're white trash low life scum and now she thinks he's no good too so they're probably getting divorced. I'm putting my cat to sleep on Friday becuase he's just so old and he poops and pees in the house now but not in his litter box. I think he's just going senile and losing his mind. it's breaking my heart up and I can't really talk about it. One of my best friends is seeing a psychologist and she won't talk to me about any of it. she lives in California so we don't talk often anyway but her mom told my mom and my mom told me. My friend Brian is in jail for shit from a DUI he got 3 years ago (he actually deserves it to be honest, but it still sucks having to go visit him in jail, I'm not a fan). Kevin won't leave me the fuck alone. Casey is home and he wants to see me all the time but he's not actually listening to me at all. I'm totally broke. I can't eat, my stomach just won't let me. my mom is drunk pretty much everytime I see her. everyone just seems to want something out of me I can't give them. I'm drained. I'm done. this probably doesn't seem like all that much stuff but the magnitude of some of it is just really too much to handle alone, let alone combined with everything else. I'm just starting to shut down. I want a break from life.