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Do you know what it is like to go absolutely insane. To have the world rain down on you with unforseeable strangeness and a seeming hatred? I love my boyfriend he is clean and new, but I cat even seem to do that right. The sun goes down and then comes up again. The sun rises and then falls again untouched. I cannot change anything, am not willing to ruin anything, have no power to leave at my disposal. There are two things I cannot remember: Why did I need the power in the first place and how am i to earn it besides he staying and the leaving, besides the ruining and the building up what it is that we want and have always wanted.