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//New Layout, New Icon. First Picture of myself I've put up here in a long, long time. Maybe I'll do a picture post soon. Maybe not, I don't have many people reading this anymore.
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Yesterday was the strangest, longest, most uncomfortable day I've had in a long while, except maybe the day before. This whole week has just been... arduous.
Days like this bring to my attention that there are still a lot of things about myself I need to work on. I feel like locking myself away in a cabin in the mountains for two weeks. I just need to figure this out. Why I'm so sensitive to certain things. Why I can't just roll with it, let it go, stop letting my strange moods put the whole day in a funk.
I think we are just such perfect opposites that it makes us clash sometimes. We just have to learn how to reconcile our differences, which we do exceptionally well on the whole. Just every once in a while we hit bumps in the road that hurt the both of us more than they should.
Ha, as she put it, "even our problems are just how we love each other so much".
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Chance has really just disappointed me. I completely went off on him Tuesday. Anger in me like I haven't seen in a long, long time. I just wanted to tear him down and beat the shit out of him, frankly. Marcella is becoming poison to him. Him and all his most important relationships. I'm not going to let it go this time. You want to say you dislike mine, when yours is terrible to you and all of your friends? You want to say I'm not a good enough friend to you after you, the ride home, fucking leave me and my girlfriend at someone's apartment without even telling us? You really want to go there? OH please, sweetheart. Lets. Because I have plenty to say on the subject. And you will be the one to walk away with scars.
I'm just ready to tear someone apart at this point.
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Nikki texted me last night, informing me that she got a new cell phone & number. Then she texted me with "Guess what?", which just made me want to halt the conversation altogether, because with her that question never leads to a good thing.
And then she replies... telling me that she and Michelle have gotten together.
Great. Because the whole lesbian dynamic at work definitely wasn't weird enough to begin with.
They just make... a horrible couple. They really do. I can't even imagine them together at all. I can only hope they're joking.
More lesbian drama to come, fantastic. Just one more reason for me to quit. Soon.
I just need to find a new job first. I may wind up waitressing, which I have no desire to do, but... it will get me the most money. And that's something I need a lot of.
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I don't even know how I feel anymore. I just need to get out of here. Thank god I'm waiving all my finals. Just three more days, actually. Hahaha. Then no more high school.
No.
More.
Fucking.
High School.
Then I'll be free. I'll be crazy busy with work over the summer, but I'll still have more time. More time for everyone. More time for her. I can't wait to spend my summer with her, it's just going to be perfect.
And the Dresden Dolls in one month and 6 days! AHHHHHH. Her, me, and Dallas, Texas. I cannot wait.
She is too good to me. ♥
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Yesterday was the strangest, longest, most uncomfortable day I've had in a long while, except maybe the day before. This whole week has just been... arduous.
Days like this bring to my attention that there are still a lot of things about myself I need to work on. I feel like locking myself away in a cabin in the mountains for two weeks. I just need to figure this out. Why I'm so sensitive to certain things. Why I can't just roll with it, let it go, stop letting my strange moods put the whole day in a funk.
I think we are just such perfect opposites that it makes us clash sometimes. We just have to learn how to reconcile our differences, which we do exceptionally well on the whole. Just every once in a while we hit bumps in the road that hurt the both of us more than they should.
Ha, as she put it, "even our problems are just how we love each other so much".
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Chance has really just disappointed me. I completely went off on him Tuesday. Anger in me like I haven't seen in a long, long time. I just wanted to tear him down and beat the shit out of him, frankly. Marcella is becoming poison to him. Him and all his most important relationships. I'm not going to let it go this time. You want to say you dislike mine, when yours is terrible to you and all of your friends? You want to say I'm not a good enough friend to you after you, the ride home, fucking leave me and my girlfriend at someone's apartment without even telling us? You really want to go there? OH please, sweetheart. Lets. Because I have plenty to say on the subject. And you will be the one to walk away with scars.
I'm just ready to tear someone apart at this point.
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Nikki texted me last night, informing me that she got a new cell phone & number. Then she texted me with "Guess what?", which just made me want to halt the conversation altogether, because with her that question never leads to a good thing.
And then she replies... telling me that she and Michelle have gotten together.
Great. Because the whole lesbian dynamic at work definitely wasn't weird enough to begin with.
They just make... a horrible couple. They really do. I can't even imagine them together at all. I can only hope they're joking.
More lesbian drama to come, fantastic. Just one more reason for me to quit. Soon.
I just need to find a new job first. I may wind up waitressing, which I have no desire to do, but... it will get me the most money. And that's something I need a lot of.
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I don't even know how I feel anymore. I just need to get out of here. Thank god I'm waiving all my finals. Just three more days, actually. Hahaha. Then no more high school.
No.
More.
Fucking.
High School.
Then I'll be free. I'll be crazy busy with work over the summer, but I'll still have more time. More time for everyone. More time for her. I can't wait to spend my summer with her, it's just going to be perfect.
And the Dresden Dolls in one month and 6 days! AHHHHHH. Her, me, and Dallas, Texas. I cannot wait.
She is too good to me. ♥