Please don't think that this was easy...
I miss him so much.
I know that we could never be truly happy again. But even my worst day ever with him was better than how I feel now.
I want to tell him so badly how much I love him. But then again would he believe it? He didn't towards the end. What would've changed his mind now?
I just want us to be back together again. And laughing and happy. I want to be able to lay in bed beside him and just have him hold me like he used to.
It kills me inside that he has someone new. Everytime we talk... Hearing him how happy he is again...
And I must be one masochistic puppy... because even listening to him talking about her...
Is better than not talking to him at all.
I wish he knew that my heart is absolutely crushed.
But do I? I mean he sounds so happy now... I should ruin his happiness.
But....
Things wouldn't work out anyway. There are too many things that we couldn't work out in order to move on as a couple.
I've told him a million times though.... He's the one. But we got away from each other.
I know that we could never be truly happy again. But even my worst day ever with him was better than how I feel now.
I want to tell him so badly how much I love him. But then again would he believe it? He didn't towards the end. What would've changed his mind now?
I just want us to be back together again. And laughing and happy. I want to be able to lay in bed beside him and just have him hold me like he used to.
It kills me inside that he has someone new. Everytime we talk... Hearing him how happy he is again...
And I must be one masochistic puppy... because even listening to him talking about her...
Is better than not talking to him at all.
I wish he knew that my heart is absolutely crushed.
But do I? I mean he sounds so happy now... I should ruin his happiness.
But....
Things wouldn't work out anyway. There are too many things that we couldn't work out in order to move on as a couple.
I've told him a million times though.... He's the one. But we got away from each other.