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locked to Damien

Dec 17, 2007 14:41

Bill left a note for his parents and Hope who were all at work, saying he was going to Damien's for a while but he would be back later that night or the next morning. He haphazardly packed a backpack and hobbled onto the subway to the airport. It was an adventure navigating the terminal while on crutches but he handled it. He took the business ( Read more... )

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music_and_magic December 17 2007, 20:31:19 UTC

It took a bit of doing, but eventually, Damien willed himself out of bed. He glanced at the clock in his room. Almost two hours on the nose. He would have been impressed with the punctuality, if he hadn't been feeling so down.

He opened the door and remembered his friend was on crutches. It was at that point he felt like a total heel.

"Hey, let me get your bag for you bro. Thanks for getting here so fast."

golden_bill December 17 2007, 20:38:45 UTC

"Thanks," Billy said, shrugging off his packpack. Damien did not look good. He look exhausted and pained, something that made Billy forget about any injuries he might have had. "You okay man?"

music_and_magic December 17 2007, 20:47:02 UTC

Dami placed the backpack on his desk and gestured to Billy to have a seat on the bed.

"I ... I some how managed to forget you were on crutches, Bill. I would have just came to you, if I had thought about it. I'm ... sorry."

He hadn't consciously avoided the question, he was just overcome by his own thoughtlessness.

golden_bill December 18 2007, 04:47:45 UTC

Damien needed not be alone, Damien needed his best friend and when Bill realized this he didn't give it a second thought, crutches or not. Damien honestly did not need to feel guilty.

"It's okay, Damien. You needed me, so I came. No questions asked."

music_and_magic December 18 2007, 13:52:45 UTC

He let out a big sigh. A big frustrated and depressed sigh. It was good that Bill was here, very good. He'd been thinking of going out getting hammered and maybe even high. The feelings came like an itch that wanted to be scratched, persistent and difficult to ignore.

He knew wasn't safe from his addictions just because his friend was here, they were both recovering after all and if Dami wanted to get away badly enough, there was no way on earth that Billy could catch him. Crutches or not. But he was better off with his best friend being here. The extra voice of reason was good. But, more then that, people tended to turn to drugs because they felt isolated and now, Damien was not alone.

He nodded, "How are you feeling?"

golden_bill December 18 2007, 18:12:03 UTC

He recognized that sigh. He was fighting some sort of internal battle that Bill's arrival must have interrupted. No, matter. Billy was determined that with someone he trusted nearby he could talk out that battle. After all, dead eyes had not appeared yet. Billy couldn't be too late to help.

"I'm fine. The more important question is, how are you?" Bill tossed his sharpie marker at him. "And here, sign my cast. You can sign on my ankle next to the penis that Jonathan decided to draw."

music_and_magic December 19 2007, 03:19:03 UTC

He couldn't help it, no matter how tired or how moody he might be. Signing you name next to a penis doodle was funny. He couldn't help but crack a smile. Damien signed his name in big bold cursive.

"Remember when we were little and we used to waste whole reams of paper practicing our autographs for when we got famous." The smile lingered for a moment as he recalled the fond memory.

"I miss those days Bill. It wasn't so long ago when life was simple. I used to be a happy kid. I haven't felt that way in a while."

golden_bill December 19 2007, 03:38:50 UTC

Bill grinned at his smile and then laughed at the memory. "I remember. I couldn't decide if I want to be Bill or Billy or William C. and you couldn't decide how many of your middle initials to include!"

"That's one of the sucky things about being a wizard. You have to grow up faster than muggles. We at least have college to figure things out. You've got to jump right into the real world."

music_and_magic December 19 2007, 04:05:47 UTC

"I still can't figure out how many of my middle initials to include." He said bemused. "Every time I sign something it looks different."

Damien considered this, he didn't feel like his life was vastly differed from that of a non-magic user, but it did. There was less time to figure things out and more hazards. There were different expectations.

He'd never felt so different from Bill then he had in this moment.

"I never told anyone this, but when I was nine. I didn't want to be a wizard. I was seriously contemplating telling my mom and dad that I just wanted to play hockey and go to a normal school. Not only that, but I was afraid of magic ..."

golden_bill December 19 2007, 04:19:29 UTC

"I figure that by the time it will be okay that my signature is unreadable," Billy smile.

Bill watched him, wishing he could see the cogs in his friend's brain move as he thought.

"Really? But your magic is amazing. And dude, having an ipod is not that cool. I found as I got older than I appreciated being a muggle more and more."

music_and_magic December 19 2007, 04:53:31 UTC

"If I could do it all over again ..." He looked down and searched for the words. "It's not as whimsical as it seems."

"My first experience with magic was awful. I was convinced it was something I wanted no part of and then I met Lily. She changed my life ... turned me around and not just then ... it was so many times."

"I don't know what my life was supposed to be, but it's wasn't supposed to be this."

He sighed again, defeated, because he knew he wasn't making any sense.

golden_bill December 19 2007, 05:23:58 UTC

"You'd change something?" Bill was surprised. "I know. I really know."

"I know. I hated Lily for about a week when I realized she loved you and not me. But then I started loving her again partly because she's such a good friend and partly because I wouldn't know you if it weren't for her. Same reason I don't hate that Bellatrix Lestrange woman."

Bill tilted his head. He was trying his best to follow what his friend was saying. "This? What is your life now? And bro? You're 19. That's even younger in wizard years than in muggle years. Your life hasn't matured to where 'it's supposed to be' yet and it won't for a while."

music_and_magic December 19 2007, 21:28:48 UTC

"It wasn't supposed to be getting by. It wasn't supposed to be getting numb to deal with my surroundings. It wasn't supposed to be erasing the last seven years like they never happened." He said with a frown.

"I'd change a lot of somethings, if I could."

golden_bill December 19 2007, 23:28:54 UTC

"Did someone tell you it was supposed to be? The last 7 years were important, they were your coming of age, why would you want to erase them?

Billy regarded him. "Didn't I drag you to see RENT last time you were in town? Don't dote on the past. It won't do you any good."

music_and_magic December 20 2007, 02:11:51 UTC

Damien hung his head, exacerbated. Something about the way this conversation had gone totally deflated him. He withdrew, emotionally and even physically, he felt himself shrinking away from Bill's gaze.

"I guess I'm totally off base and everything I feel is completely absurd. Forget I said anything."

golden_bill December 20 2007, 02:24:01 UTC

"Stop! Don't recoil like that. I didn't come all the way out here to let you drown in your emotions." Very ungracefully, Bill moved toward Damien and grabbed his hand. There was no way he was going to let his friend off that easily. "I didn't say that you were off base, just explain it to me, huh? I'm listening. I'm on your side."

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