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It's alright guys. We broke up tonight. Funny thing is, I didn't get upset. It was weird because he started to do one of those, "So I've been thinking a lot lately." Those always make me want to laugh. The fact is, once you've said that, you really don't need to say anymore. I just told him not to worry about it. The thing is, I didn't have anything to say to him. I was trying to think of something, but I was thinking absolutely nothing. Nothing. I was looking at the ceiling, and thinking about the fact that he probably thought it was weird that I was looking at the ceiling. Then we talked for almost three hours, and he just went home. He said he felt like an ass for putting me through what he did all week, and I told him that he should feel like one. He also said he was being a coward and trying to postpone it. I told him he was more of an ass for doing that, because it just made it worse for me. The thing is; I'm just strange. When I get broken up with, I don't cry. I saw it coming from the moment you wanted to be with me. I know that I'm not going to stay with you because I'm only 18. I start to think, "I wonder how this is going to end?" I even daydream about it sometimes when I am dating someone. I know that sounds weird. Why even date if you don't expect much? I don't know if I can answer that. I guess, just like everyone else, I get tired of being alone. Also, all that sappy shit like, "OMG, I cant listen to that song because it reminds me of that one time!" I don't do that. It's a song. I like that song. Who cares? If I dont create something new to go along with it, then a lot of things in life would be horrible. There really is no point in being overdramatic. That sounds weird coming from someone as emotional as me. I would be interesting to study I think.