MY MIND ON NARCOTIC PAINKILLERS
At something like 2AM this morning, I stopped taking the narcotic painkillers I had been on following surgery. Want to know why?
BECAUSE I WAS FREAKING HALLUCINATING/LUCID DREAMING/COMPLETELY WHACKED OUT.
I was on Hydrocordone (whatever the generic of Lortab is) and I felt fine during the day, but at night it would ratchet up my anxiety and every little noise would make my whole body jerk in fright. For serious. In fact, my family watched an action movie one night and the loud sound effects of gunshots, stuff exploding etc, almost gave me a heart attack. I was so tense and anxious it was ridiculous.
It was also giving me really bad nightmares. I had tons of dreams in the week I had been taking it and most of the time I would wake up frightened, though I can't now recall exactly what the dreams were about.
I do remember last night though.
I'm not sure if I was awake or dreaming, but I felt someone sit down on the bed next to me (I even heard the springs creak) and then I suddenly had this tingly sensation as if whatever it was was melting into me. I could feel it along my back like a weight. (I was sleeping on my side.)
Needless to say, I freaked the fuck out. But, of course, being on pain pills, I had a hard time waking myself up. I'm sure I looked like a freak thrashing around. When I was finally awake and aware, I realized that I must have been hallucinating or something, because my bed doesn't squeak, and since I was sleeping at the edge, there was no room for anyone to sit down next to me. Craziest thing, I swear. Long story short, I immediately stopped the pills and switched to Extra Strength Tylenol.
What's sad is that I now feel sick, almost like withdrawal-sick, in that I have the chills and I just don't feel right. I don't care though, I'll get through it. You can't get me down, demon-pills!
BECAUSE I WAS FREAKING HALLUCINATING/LUCID DREAMING/COMPLETELY WHACKED OUT.
I was on Hydrocordone (whatever the generic of Lortab is) and I felt fine during the day, but at night it would ratchet up my anxiety and every little noise would make my whole body jerk in fright. For serious. In fact, my family watched an action movie one night and the loud sound effects of gunshots, stuff exploding etc, almost gave me a heart attack. I was so tense and anxious it was ridiculous.
It was also giving me really bad nightmares. I had tons of dreams in the week I had been taking it and most of the time I would wake up frightened, though I can't now recall exactly what the dreams were about.
I do remember last night though.
I'm not sure if I was awake or dreaming, but I felt someone sit down on the bed next to me (I even heard the springs creak) and then I suddenly had this tingly sensation as if whatever it was was melting into me. I could feel it along my back like a weight. (I was sleeping on my side.)
Needless to say, I freaked the fuck out. But, of course, being on pain pills, I had a hard time waking myself up. I'm sure I looked like a freak thrashing around. When I was finally awake and aware, I realized that I must have been hallucinating or something, because my bed doesn't squeak, and since I was sleeping at the edge, there was no room for anyone to sit down next to me. Craziest thing, I swear. Long story short, I immediately stopped the pills and switched to Extra Strength Tylenol.
What's sad is that I now feel sick, almost like withdrawal-sick, in that I have the chills and I just don't feel right. I don't care though, I'll get through it. You can't get me down, demon-pills!