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I'm so scared. I don't know what I'm meant to do any more. I'm just scared all the time and I can't make it stop. I never used to be scared of anything before, not anything real. I was scared of stupid things. Like showing up at things wearing the same outfit as someone else. I was scared that a boy might not like me. I was scared that I wouldn't be popular one day.
My parents think I'm on drugs or in a gang or something, and I never talk to the people who were meant to be my friends anymore.
And now I'm remember things that never happened to me, like I'm channeling or something. There's someone else in my dreams and I'm watching the world through their eyes. I'm running so fast through trees and there's something scary in those dreams, some sort of monster. What if the monster part is me?
This isn't what my life was meant to be like. I don't want to wake up crying anymore. Won't someone please make all this stop?
My parents think I'm on drugs or in a gang or something, and I never talk to the people who were meant to be my friends anymore.
And now I'm remember things that never happened to me, like I'm channeling or something. There's someone else in my dreams and I'm watching the world through their eyes. I'm running so fast through trees and there's something scary in those dreams, some sort of monster. What if the monster part is me?
This isn't what my life was meant to be like. I don't want to wake up crying anymore. Won't someone please make all this stop?