Suspicous Minds - [Marlena's Quarters] - [Marlena, mKirk]
Kirk was not happy about what he'd found last time he'd entered Marlena's quarters without announcing himself. His impulse was to tear the bastard impostor apart, in front of Marlena, just to show her.
He'd curbed it.
He'd curbed a lot, these past few days, making nice with the natives and getting nothing for his pains but a headache in sparkly, day-glo hues and the frustration of impotence. Figurative, but might as well be literal. He hated being careful. Hated pretending when there wasn't a clear goal, when it wasn't simply a matter of fucking or killing your way to the top. He could be sneaky. He could be subtle. But it was a strain, and "survival" was such a broad directive that it left him nearly trembling with impatience.
Something had to happen.
He wast tempted to break in on whatever Marlena was doing, to catch her at something else, maybe the other Kirk again, maybe someone else. He had no doubt she'd been liberally supplying herself to all and sundry. The fact that he didn't like it didn't mean he cared. But the fact remained that he couldn't risk revealing their relationship without seriously compromising his cover.
And so he waited, impatiently, at the door, as it announced his presence.
He'd curbed it.
He'd curbed a lot, these past few days, making nice with the natives and getting nothing for his pains but a headache in sparkly, day-glo hues and the frustration of impotence. Figurative, but might as well be literal. He hated being careful. Hated pretending when there wasn't a clear goal, when it wasn't simply a matter of fucking or killing your way to the top. He could be sneaky. He could be subtle. But it was a strain, and "survival" was such a broad directive that it left him nearly trembling with impatience.
Something had to happen.
He wast tempted to break in on whatever Marlena was doing, to catch her at something else, maybe the other Kirk again, maybe someone else. He had no doubt she'd been liberally supplying herself to all and sundry. The fact that he didn't like it didn't mean he cared. But the fact remained that he couldn't risk revealing their relationship without seriously compromising his cover.
And so he waited, impatiently, at the door, as it announced his presence.