I am so burned. My skin aches so badly that the muscles and bone ache along with it. It's almost a physical incarnation of what I've been feeling for a while now
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i hurt for what you're going through. but now that it's done... can't you breathe a little easier? do you feel some form of relief, or better feeling than what you were feeling before?
if you feel at all improved, it's a good thing. look for even the smallest indications that things are getting better, no matter how slowly, and acknowledge that.
focusing on you is what makes you better and stronger. it's the exact, right thing to do.
I've been thinking about you a lot lately. I made a couple of attempts at sending the painting your way and something or other has gotten in the way. I think that I'll be able to send it after this pay check. I don't want you to think that I've forgotten. I feel horrible that it's taken me so long.
As for this deal... I have my ups and downs. I haven't spent so much time with my friends in what seems like ages. I was always missing out on those little moments with them because he didn't want to be a part of it. But it really saddens me that he's not even talking to me. That he would say, "I want to talk" and then just let me down again. I don't know. It feels like I wasted that time. I don't like that feeling.
I realize that people say that it's never been wasted because of the people and things you've experienced. I know that. I guess I was just hoping that for once, he would fight for something. Kind of stupid of me.
no rush on the painting... really. :) i will love it just the same whether it arrives next month or in seven years.
i know the feeling of wasted time. it's upsetting. but truly, in time, you'll see nothing was wasted. we put ourselves through things in life just for the experience sometimes, and not the end result.
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if you feel at all improved, it's a good thing. look for even the smallest indications that things are getting better, no matter how slowly, and acknowledge that.
focusing on you is what makes you better and stronger. it's the exact, right thing to do.
*hugs*
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I've been thinking about you a lot lately. I made a couple of attempts at sending the painting your way and something or other has gotten in the way. I think that I'll be able to send it after this pay check. I don't want you to think that I've forgotten. I feel horrible that it's taken me so long.
As for this deal... I have my ups and downs. I haven't spent so much time with my friends in what seems like ages. I was always missing out on those little moments with them because he didn't want to be a part of it. But it really saddens me that he's not even talking to me. That he would say, "I want to talk" and then just let me down again. I don't know. It feels like I wasted that time. I don't like that feeling.
I realize that people say that it's never been wasted because of the people and things you've experienced. I know that. I guess I was just hoping that for once, he would fight for something. Kind of stupid of me.
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i know the feeling of wasted time. it's upsetting. but truly, in time, you'll see nothing was wasted. we put ourselves through things in life just for the experience sometimes, and not the end result.
i think of you often.
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