Long time no write...
Well, as most of you know, I've been using my MySpace blog a lot recently. For some reason, Lj just takes a long time to load for me, especially my friends page. Whenever I click on something that has to do with profiles or reading friends entries, I have to wait a minute or two because I can do anything in that window. It really slows my computer. So, that's mainly the reason that I've been away. It was really getting to me after a while. But here I am. I haven't disappeared... yet.
...for those who care to know...
Life overall has been good. But that's something that I would probably say even when the whole world seems to have flown off its axis and thrown me into a downward spiral. I'm alive. I have my loves (Adam, family, friends). And I have a good job. So, I don't have much to complain about I guess.
.The Job.
I really enjoy what I do, but there's always room for improvement or areas to develop. So, I applied for a position as a trainer. My whole interview process was pretty much screwed up. I've been told by several people to call the "Awareness" hotline. But everyone I know that has called that line has either been harassed or fired. I have too many responsibilities to knowingly subject myself to the possibility of not having an income. The whole idea of calling is just out of the question. I've been trying to find a way to go around the awareness hotline and get some other HR's to help me. But being that I don't know a lot of people in the company and this is my first store, that's not the best resource.
Policy stands that during your second interview, you are to get interviewed by the district HR and the district manager. No matter who gets the position, the people who do not get the position are notified FIRST that they did not get the position.
I was interviewed by my store HR and the trainer that got the position the last go around. I thought that was completely out of line and from what I understand, my thoughts aren't out of line. Then the person who received the position, who has NO knowledge about kitchens whatsoever and can't draw a wall to save her life, was notified that she got the position. It was all over the store and some of the other stores in the district within a day. Now, I don't have have any recentment towards this person but it does bother me a great deal that other people (not just myself) applied for this position with years in kitchen design, yet she got the position. It doesn't make any sense to me.
Anyhow, I was never told. The HR scrambled and called my mentor requesting that he be the one to tell me even though its HER job to speak to me. He called me as a matter of principle to tell me how fucked the whole situation was and to advise me to do something about it. She told him that it was my level of professionalism that was in question and the reason why I didn't get the position. When he said this to me, I laughed and said... "It's the way I dress." This isn't the first time that I've been told that my professionalism wasn't up to par with what was wanted. But it was the second time I've dealt with small minded people that work in a click. I was pissed off by this point. I work with all people well except for the occasional asshole. I pay respect to everyone I deal with on a daily basis. I work my butt off and was rated top sales person in the nation. I sold over $1 million in the fiscal year which is unheard of in our area. AND over $100k was to ONE customer on ONE sale. I seriously doubt that if my level of professionalism was in question that I would be able to do that and still have return business or word-of-mouth requests for my services. I honestly felt like kicking my HR in the teeth for being such a cunt and doing everything ass-backwards. I would have prefered to have had my interview done the way it was supposed to be done and dealt with a rejection from a district level rather than from a pion that doesn't do shit all day.
Yeah, I'm still a bit pissed off about the whole thing. I could throw the race card in there. As far as I'm aware, there are no Latinos involved in any of the training positions. But, I haven't done shit about it yet. I really don't know what to do.
Oh, and I still make less than the designer that makes the least amount of sales and has the most markdowns. Explain to me how that's logical. I figure I'll eventually transfer to another store.
.My Parents.
Mom and Dad are doing good right now. It's a strange cycle with them. Somedays they're at each other's throats or mine and somedays they're happy. It's weird. But nothing out of the ordinary for us, I guess. It's kind of strange going between Adam's world and my own. His family is unlike anything I've ever known. They hardly ever fight and they're always pretty mellow. My family... complete opposite. But I will say, that when his family has some sort of negative commotion, I really feel uncomfortable. Whereas with my parents, I just blow them off and wait for them to cool off.
I still haven't found a doctor or insurance for my mom. So, I'm not sure how her health is doing. Dad seems to be doing better from what I understand.
They're car broke down on Monday. That was a rough day all around. It needs a new engine... $3400 repair. I doubt we're going to do anything about it but its a freakin' 1999. Bleh.
.Adam.
Adam's been applying at jobs. I'm pretty hyped up about it. And yet, I worry. Lately, we've hardly been able to talk or see each other so, I'm worried that the lack of contact will affect us. He says I worry too much... which I do. I miss him terribly. And not a day goes by without me daydreaming about us having our own place and living OUR lives. Bleh. Other than that, we're doing really good. We're going on 5 years in September. Pretty amazing.
.Me.
I haven't been working out at all. I have been eating healthier thanks to Adam's parents. I've been eating tons of squash and cucumbers from their garden. And from our own, my parents and I have been eating bell peppers, cilantro, cabbage, etc. I like having a garden, but I don't maintain it. That's my mom's baby.
Overall, I'm pretty happy. I still wish that I had more time or that I didn't require sleep. I could do so much more. I haven't painted since October. Just haven't had it in me. Also, if I paint, it takes me away from something else or someone else. So I don't. I don't have enough time for all the things I'd like. I hardly see Adam so when I take a day for myself to catch up on household chores of help my parents, I feel kind of guilty. But then again, I hardly spend any time at home. I don't know... this life style is starting to get to me. Everything is SO far away. The drive is starting to burn me out as well. Ahh well...
So, that's it. Overall, life is good. I miss my friends, of course. I wish I could see them more often. TOOL was awesome. Saw them around the end of June. Saw Allen Nasty again after not seeing him for years. I really dug his band and its many personalities/transformations. My friend Nik had his last show in FWB not too long ago. His band moved to Georgia. And... I've got to leave in a little over an hour and half. I think I'm going to try to nap for a few minutes before getting ready for work.
As always, I wish you all the very best and my apologies for being out of touch. I will do my best to catch up with your entries. I hope you are well.
...for those who care to know...
Life overall has been good. But that's something that I would probably say even when the whole world seems to have flown off its axis and thrown me into a downward spiral. I'm alive. I have my loves (Adam, family, friends). And I have a good job. So, I don't have much to complain about I guess.
.The Job.
I really enjoy what I do, but there's always room for improvement or areas to develop. So, I applied for a position as a trainer. My whole interview process was pretty much screwed up. I've been told by several people to call the "Awareness" hotline. But everyone I know that has called that line has either been harassed or fired. I have too many responsibilities to knowingly subject myself to the possibility of not having an income. The whole idea of calling is just out of the question. I've been trying to find a way to go around the awareness hotline and get some other HR's to help me. But being that I don't know a lot of people in the company and this is my first store, that's not the best resource.
Policy stands that during your second interview, you are to get interviewed by the district HR and the district manager. No matter who gets the position, the people who do not get the position are notified FIRST that they did not get the position.
I was interviewed by my store HR and the trainer that got the position the last go around. I thought that was completely out of line and from what I understand, my thoughts aren't out of line. Then the person who received the position, who has NO knowledge about kitchens whatsoever and can't draw a wall to save her life, was notified that she got the position. It was all over the store and some of the other stores in the district within a day. Now, I don't have have any recentment towards this person but it does bother me a great deal that other people (not just myself) applied for this position with years in kitchen design, yet she got the position. It doesn't make any sense to me.
Anyhow, I was never told. The HR scrambled and called my mentor requesting that he be the one to tell me even though its HER job to speak to me. He called me as a matter of principle to tell me how fucked the whole situation was and to advise me to do something about it. She told him that it was my level of professionalism that was in question and the reason why I didn't get the position. When he said this to me, I laughed and said... "It's the way I dress." This isn't the first time that I've been told that my professionalism wasn't up to par with what was wanted. But it was the second time I've dealt with small minded people that work in a click. I was pissed off by this point. I work with all people well except for the occasional asshole. I pay respect to everyone I deal with on a daily basis. I work my butt off and was rated top sales person in the nation. I sold over $1 million in the fiscal year which is unheard of in our area. AND over $100k was to ONE customer on ONE sale. I seriously doubt that if my level of professionalism was in question that I would be able to do that and still have return business or word-of-mouth requests for my services. I honestly felt like kicking my HR in the teeth for being such a cunt and doing everything ass-backwards. I would have prefered to have had my interview done the way it was supposed to be done and dealt with a rejection from a district level rather than from a pion that doesn't do shit all day.
Yeah, I'm still a bit pissed off about the whole thing. I could throw the race card in there. As far as I'm aware, there are no Latinos involved in any of the training positions. But, I haven't done shit about it yet. I really don't know what to do.
Oh, and I still make less than the designer that makes the least amount of sales and has the most markdowns. Explain to me how that's logical. I figure I'll eventually transfer to another store.
.My Parents.
Mom and Dad are doing good right now. It's a strange cycle with them. Somedays they're at each other's throats or mine and somedays they're happy. It's weird. But nothing out of the ordinary for us, I guess. It's kind of strange going between Adam's world and my own. His family is unlike anything I've ever known. They hardly ever fight and they're always pretty mellow. My family... complete opposite. But I will say, that when his family has some sort of negative commotion, I really feel uncomfortable. Whereas with my parents, I just blow them off and wait for them to cool off.
I still haven't found a doctor or insurance for my mom. So, I'm not sure how her health is doing. Dad seems to be doing better from what I understand.
They're car broke down on Monday. That was a rough day all around. It needs a new engine... $3400 repair. I doubt we're going to do anything about it but its a freakin' 1999. Bleh.
.Adam.
Adam's been applying at jobs. I'm pretty hyped up about it. And yet, I worry. Lately, we've hardly been able to talk or see each other so, I'm worried that the lack of contact will affect us. He says I worry too much... which I do. I miss him terribly. And not a day goes by without me daydreaming about us having our own place and living OUR lives. Bleh. Other than that, we're doing really good. We're going on 5 years in September. Pretty amazing.
.Me.
I haven't been working out at all. I have been eating healthier thanks to Adam's parents. I've been eating tons of squash and cucumbers from their garden. And from our own, my parents and I have been eating bell peppers, cilantro, cabbage, etc. I like having a garden, but I don't maintain it. That's my mom's baby.
Overall, I'm pretty happy. I still wish that I had more time or that I didn't require sleep. I could do so much more. I haven't painted since October. Just haven't had it in me. Also, if I paint, it takes me away from something else or someone else. So I don't. I don't have enough time for all the things I'd like. I hardly see Adam so when I take a day for myself to catch up on household chores of help my parents, I feel kind of guilty. But then again, I hardly spend any time at home. I don't know... this life style is starting to get to me. Everything is SO far away. The drive is starting to burn me out as well. Ahh well...
So, that's it. Overall, life is good. I miss my friends, of course. I wish I could see them more often. TOOL was awesome. Saw them around the end of June. Saw Allen Nasty again after not seeing him for years. I really dug his band and its many personalities/transformations. My friend Nik had his last show in FWB not too long ago. His band moved to Georgia. And... I've got to leave in a little over an hour and half. I think I'm going to try to nap for a few minutes before getting ready for work.
As always, I wish you all the very best and my apologies for being out of touch. I will do my best to catch up with your entries. I hope you are well.