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Alright, been awhile since I last decided to utilize this whole online journal thing, so here goes.
Today went well, beginning with myself getting up at 6:00 to leave for Neenah and Solo&Ensemble to perform with Madrigals at 8:00. My mom took me up (My car's still in the garage until we find 400 dollars lying around, fun, no?) and afterwards we bummed around the area until my Solo, which I did *not* want to perform, at 1:45. After having fun singing at like 40% of what I can perform, and Mr. Thomas, a nice man thank you but confused as my solo's changed key twice in the last week, threw me off nicely with fairly not-so-great piano playing. I have a "Great Ear" as I've been told, and molded to his horrible playing at parts, so that was fun... that and my chest felt closed off today, so breath support was not an option. Oh well, such is life, no? I only practiced the damn thing... 5 times in the past couple months? Yea, so whatever ^_^
I'm beginning to get back into the swing of work without the play absorbing my focus, though I already miss the acting experiences from it. Through "Fools" and Mr. Wilson's guidance (My director) I believe I've finally found my dream in life: acting. I've always imagined myself being a big star, and after finally being a lead in something and doing it, and *feeling* it... I think I have a full-purposed dream in life at the very least now.
On to more depressing news, I miss Ryan too much; I'm beginning to lose feeling for him. It's rather hard to describe really, it's not that I don't love him any less, it's just that with every passing day I lose touch and feeling and feel our relationship slipping to lower levels, back down to what it was before we met. If I don't meet him soon, I said two days ago, I would go mad. Now if I don't meet him and experience his wonderful euphoria asap, I fear I may lose my feelings until we ebb back into friendship mode, which I do not want to happen; I know I truly love him still, and when I'm around him I can feel that; when we're miles and miles away, it gets harder to feel. I have a new respect for people like my mom, whom sees my dad 3 days in a month, who are involved in long-distance relationships the majority of the time. At least this experience will teach me a valuable lesson in something of the sort... *sigh*
Hmm, more Gary-news to cheer myself up from that approaching slum of an attitude... aha! My writing life: dying. I haven't really written any fiction for way too long now, and whenever I feel like it I'm caught up in something else, and when I have time to write, I just don't feel like getting started. Poor Reunions & Refusions is sitting idle, The Eternal Library RPG I was about to start needs me to get my ass in gear, and other ideas swimming in my head will never get to paper, as it always is with me. Literally one out of every 5 "good ideas" I get at one time or another make it to even basic paper or computer idea, even a sketch; the other 4 are lost and forgotten till another time. At least I have a creativity capacity like many people lack... I just need the initiative that I lack yet they possess. Damnit... I spelt posess wrong, didn't I? Wow, I cannot spell worth bunnies today.
Anywho, I do believe that's about all I feel like ranting about at the moment. Oh, wait! My diet ^_^
I'm still losing weight a bit, though at a slowing rate as I have less and less fat to lose comparatively. I would have never imagined it 3-4 months ago, but my goal body may be only a few months away with continuing dedication and Pilates every other night. Score: Gary-1 / Fat-Unhealthy-Body-0! Alright, so I wasn't "fat" as a lot of people who know me will argue, though now I can't even mentally feel or picture myself as I was. All I do know is I need new clothes and will actually *want* to go swimming this summer without how I look holding me back! Woohoo! ^_^
Alright then, I think I'll be heading out then now. Have a great day and take care all!
What type of Bishounen are you? Find out at artificial-soul.net by Rin.
Today went well, beginning with myself getting up at 6:00 to leave for Neenah and Solo&Ensemble to perform with Madrigals at 8:00. My mom took me up (My car's still in the garage until we find 400 dollars lying around, fun, no?) and afterwards we bummed around the area until my Solo, which I did *not* want to perform, at 1:45. After having fun singing at like 40% of what I can perform, and Mr. Thomas, a nice man thank you but confused as my solo's changed key twice in the last week, threw me off nicely with fairly not-so-great piano playing. I have a "Great Ear" as I've been told, and molded to his horrible playing at parts, so that was fun... that and my chest felt closed off today, so breath support was not an option. Oh well, such is life, no? I only practiced the damn thing... 5 times in the past couple months? Yea, so whatever ^_^
I'm beginning to get back into the swing of work without the play absorbing my focus, though I already miss the acting experiences from it. Through "Fools" and Mr. Wilson's guidance (My director) I believe I've finally found my dream in life: acting. I've always imagined myself being a big star, and after finally being a lead in something and doing it, and *feeling* it... I think I have a full-purposed dream in life at the very least now.
On to more depressing news, I miss Ryan too much; I'm beginning to lose feeling for him. It's rather hard to describe really, it's not that I don't love him any less, it's just that with every passing day I lose touch and feeling and feel our relationship slipping to lower levels, back down to what it was before we met. If I don't meet him soon, I said two days ago, I would go mad. Now if I don't meet him and experience his wonderful euphoria asap, I fear I may lose my feelings until we ebb back into friendship mode, which I do not want to happen; I know I truly love him still, and when I'm around him I can feel that; when we're miles and miles away, it gets harder to feel. I have a new respect for people like my mom, whom sees my dad 3 days in a month, who are involved in long-distance relationships the majority of the time. At least this experience will teach me a valuable lesson in something of the sort... *sigh*
Hmm, more Gary-news to cheer myself up from that approaching slum of an attitude... aha! My writing life: dying. I haven't really written any fiction for way too long now, and whenever I feel like it I'm caught up in something else, and when I have time to write, I just don't feel like getting started. Poor Reunions & Refusions is sitting idle, The Eternal Library RPG I was about to start needs me to get my ass in gear, and other ideas swimming in my head will never get to paper, as it always is with me. Literally one out of every 5 "good ideas" I get at one time or another make it to even basic paper or computer idea, even a sketch; the other 4 are lost and forgotten till another time. At least I have a creativity capacity like many people lack... I just need the initiative that I lack yet they possess. Damnit... I spelt posess wrong, didn't I? Wow, I cannot spell worth bunnies today.
Anywho, I do believe that's about all I feel like ranting about at the moment. Oh, wait! My diet ^_^
I'm still losing weight a bit, though at a slowing rate as I have less and less fat to lose comparatively. I would have never imagined it 3-4 months ago, but my goal body may be only a few months away with continuing dedication and Pilates every other night. Score: Gary-1 / Fat-Unhealthy-Body-0! Alright, so I wasn't "fat" as a lot of people who know me will argue, though now I can't even mentally feel or picture myself as I was. All I do know is I need new clothes and will actually *want* to go swimming this summer without how I look holding me back! Woohoo! ^_^
Alright then, I think I'll be heading out then now. Have a great day and take care all!
What type of Bishounen are you? Find out at artificial-soul.net by Rin.