tired and confused
Amy just blew up at me for not telling her not to drop her math when i didnt know she was going to drop it untill after she had done it already. This might make sense, but i dont get it. it really doesnt make that big a difference, because she wont lose the hope. HOPE looks at attempted hours, not actual, and she attempted more than 12 so she's good. and she doesnt get evaluated till next semester, which is also good. I dont know, its her college education, and its between her and her father, who is paying for it, what she does with it. I just try and help, which apparently im not doing well enough.
today has been a pretty shit day all around. i slept through my alarm and had to rush my shower because of it. i went to the bank and they gave me a hard time about cashing my check because they want me to have parental concent to do it when i havent needed it before. that sucked too. then i met Amy at jittery joes, which was awsome because i got to see her before i left. then i wanted to go to her house and hang out, but my car started spewing coolant all over her drive way and now is sitting like a blight on her property. and my dad has to get someone out there to tow it. i think its a crack in the engine block, which will mean replacing the whole engine. that is going to cost me more than i spent on the car in the first place, and i doubt i want to do that, so now i have to find another car and someone to sell this one to. fuck. then, i get online to talk to amy and she in essence hangs up on me for trying to tell her why she should have kept her math. why would you drop a class you were considering making your major? I dont know, but she just didnt go to astronomy when that was her major. And on top of that apparently i was making her feel more like shit than she had been feeling all day, which i didnt know since she seemed ok when i saw her last when she was taking me home after my car died on me. im insensitive to other peoples feelings sometimes, and i must have missed it. and now i have to go to my class knowing that she is pissed at me for some reason that im not sure of. this seems too much like a marriage already. too confusing. ill have to figure it out when the hole in my head where my tooth once was stops hurting. until then
today has been a pretty shit day all around. i slept through my alarm and had to rush my shower because of it. i went to the bank and they gave me a hard time about cashing my check because they want me to have parental concent to do it when i havent needed it before. that sucked too. then i met Amy at jittery joes, which was awsome because i got to see her before i left. then i wanted to go to her house and hang out, but my car started spewing coolant all over her drive way and now is sitting like a blight on her property. and my dad has to get someone out there to tow it. i think its a crack in the engine block, which will mean replacing the whole engine. that is going to cost me more than i spent on the car in the first place, and i doubt i want to do that, so now i have to find another car and someone to sell this one to. fuck. then, i get online to talk to amy and she in essence hangs up on me for trying to tell her why she should have kept her math. why would you drop a class you were considering making your major? I dont know, but she just didnt go to astronomy when that was her major. And on top of that apparently i was making her feel more like shit than she had been feeling all day, which i didnt know since she seemed ok when i saw her last when she was taking me home after my car died on me. im insensitive to other peoples feelings sometimes, and i must have missed it. and now i have to go to my class knowing that she is pissed at me for some reason that im not sure of. this seems too much like a marriage already. too confusing. ill have to figure it out when the hole in my head where my tooth once was stops hurting. until then