i feel like total shit
augh everything has gone wrong since about 630. stupid merritt. she fucked everything up for me. hitting on me the whole time. me vaguely trying to get rid of her, but i thought she knew about kyra and who she was so it was harder. BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAWOIHAEGHWEH i just wanna go fuckin wail on myself. beat the shit out of my face. give myself another black eye. aowerga;aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa and then go cry for awhile. and people telling me i'm a great person? i hear it all the time. from the person who i just made cry. and everyone. i'm tired of it. i'm not who i want to be and people telling me how great i am at everything is not helping. if you say yeah you're good but keep working, then it might help some. but not you're awesome. aweig7y;weigua;e gaugh. i feel so terrible. we were both in the most incredible mood, and leave it to me to screw it all up. AEIGHAJWEIHJAWEOHIJAWE FUCK fUCK FUCKkkkkkk sepgoppppppppppppppppppp piece of shit. i hate this. i hate everything right now. i'll talk to chelsea later and vent my frustrations. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGH you have no idea. and i even said something stupid and kind of joking to kyra and she was like now is not the time for jokes. and i was like dammit. a'wegiwjeg so now, everyone, you know that i suck. don't compliment me anymore. at least not tomorrow. i've arranged for adrienne to slap me. whee. good. i deserve it. i think i'm gonna email ray2 cuz she wanted to know but she's a stupid bitch so i'm not sure. haha see, i do hate everything right now. ok well i'm at least getting out of this stupid lj thing.