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OKAY I WANTED TO PUT THIS OFF AS LONG AS I COULD BUT I NEED TO DO THIS NOW. This is half “how I play Kilik” and half “this is how he’s doing in camp right now.” I figure it’s important to know how he’s doing, because it’s relevant to people who knew him before and know him now. This is probably going to be especially relevant to Gravity Children, Ine, and Ringo. And by “Gravity Children,” I mean the original group.
Now, the “how I play him” part of things!
Kilik, in canon, is a very loving individual. When he gets them out of the tower, it’s partly because he couldn’t bear to handle the idea that the rest of them were going to be disposed of. Even if he had a very close relationship with his sister, his friends were Very Important to him. As a result, he became a type of person who would do anything to keep his friends happy. Through this, he developed a sort of complex-Kilik thinks he needs to save people, and he has a very self-righteous (read: very dick-like) complex regarding all of it. He’s not benevolent and all loving or anything, but the idea of people getting hurt has always bothered him, and even if he got his friends out, I think killing someone to do it probably bothered him. At least a little, because it was an eye for an eye thing, and at the time-I don’t think he could see that killing someone was a necessity.
Obviously, that’s changed.
But to get to the “Kilik has changed” part of things, he had to be manipulated, lied to, and basically treated like crap. I think there was a time in his life when he considered Sora to be his best friend. With his easy smiles and way of encouraging Kilik, there was no way that Kilik could see that he intended to hurt him. I doubt this was EVER reciprocated, but it was how he looked at him. But when it came to the Gravity Children and all of Sleeping Forest, he loved each and every one of his friends. That’s why he was so easy to lie to: he would believe almost everything at face value. To Kilik, there was no reason to believe anything else.
The tragic part of Kilik’s story is that he went from a huge optimist to a pessimist. I think somewhere along the way, he never exactly developed a bug for how to PROPERLY handle things, but he never liked the idea of killing. Even if Nike hadn’t shown up, he wouldn’t have killed his friends, and it’s basically shown that he still believed in the idea of freedom, but freedom could never be met through chaos, pain, and hurting others. But Kilik is very much an all-or-nothing type of person. So even if he wants freedom and the sky, he doesn’t think it can be obtained, and to some extent, the experiment with Sora made him believe that. That doesn’t make him want it any less, and returning to the tower, burying himself to some extent, was one of the most painful things he ever had to do to himself. As I said, he’s a self-righteous bastard in some ways, and this is his way of proving his point.
When he attacked the Gravity Children, I think he was caught in a rage, but I think it didn’t take him long to feel guilt. Again, Nike wouldn’t have been a necessary addition to bring about any deathless end; I think that it wasn’t very long into all of it that Kilik’s self-righteousness started to fade but he had to continue on.
In those moments, he lost all of his friends, but he lost two significant things: someone he considered his best friend (though, arguably, he lost him before-but that moment really solidified it) and his sister. The former was a big deal but the latter was a severe blow on him. It’s made obvious in how Simca thinks about him later that their relationship was very intimate. In the closest imaginable way; she was essentially his other half, his tuner, and though he was in love with the idea of Rika, it was Simca who he believed would always be at his side. That was a fact of life. Sora took away Simca and Rika. Simca, his sister who he loved and basically lived easily because she was around, and Rika, the girl he was romantically interested in. After all, Sora really did dangle Rika before his eyes to get him to welcome her onto the team, and then Kilik looks extremely hurt. But he lets himself give in to his desire for Rika just as he comes to realize that there’s no turning back with Sora (hence the kiss and dance on the rooftop).
However, years later, it was Simca who he sought to protect from Sora-not Rika. Even as Rika and Sora got back together (and there’s no doubt that Kilik knew that happened), he did nothing to change it. Rika’s still someone he will eternally be interested in, but Simca is the only person he really indirectly contacts before Ikki comes down. There’s a lot going on with Ringo, but it’s obvious that Ringo’s conflicts are internal rather than an extension of Kilik’s. n an extension of Kilik’s.
Now, fast forward to Kilik’s intentions and goals. It looks as if he still wants AT to end, that he wants that chaos purged from the world, but underneath that, I think he still wants freedom, the sky, and as he explained to the Medicine Seller-his truth. Kilik looks to the sky for hope and answers before he starts to decisively make his decisions, and it’s that which he gives up. But he knows that everyone can find a piece of something in the sky. I play him with the belief that he wants Ikki to succeed, but Ikki is not at the level he needs to be. Kilik sees the same hope in Ikki that Simca saw in him, and he understands that Ikki and Ringo’s potential bond could mean a lot for the world, as it brings a lot together.
My PROOF for this is that he seems to coax Ikki a lot with his words in canon, trying to give him the indication of how he must be, and he does the same during the battle later on where he watches from the rafters. These are very significant moments for understanding that Kilik wants Ikki to beat Sora. The hilarious part is that if Kilik strapped on a normal pair of AT, he could probably STILL beat Sora down pretty good, but he knows that it isn’t his job to do that.
So he waits in his tower for that day. Sleeping Forest as it stands is all he has left in the world. Ringo is someone he’s very honest with, and I can honestly say she can probably do very little wrong. The rest are the same way, which is probably why they’re the creepy band of fucked up people and Kilik can still act like he’s bad ass. The tower has rules and is extreme and is pretty much not a place where you want to be restricted, but these are Kilik’s restrictions-IE his way of protecting himself.
There’s a fear in the AT world of Kilik for a reason. They’re afraid of him coming out of the tower because of what he’s done and how he threatens everything. But I think that what they fear and what will happen are different. I’m not saying he won’t come out and be totally bad ass-Oh!Great is holding off on showing his full abilities for a reason-but I do think that when it happens, it won’t be against Ikki. But I guess we’ll see. And if it is against Ikki, it will be at a point where Ikki can beat him (or beat him in the near future). BUT THEORIES AREN’T COMPLETELY RELEVANT.
THAT SAID, THERE’S CAMP.
Kilik hates camp and likes it at the same time (he’ll never admit the latter). As everyone knows, Kilik is a fluffy bunny at heart who just wants to love people. His current disposition isn’t the one he naturally acquired, and any way of alleviating that means he’s a very happy guy. Or, as happy as Kilik can manage.
There are two things to keep in mind in camp.
1. There’s Simca.
2. There’s Sora.
They’re both of the significant things he lost, and there’s one of them he can get back. After my thread with Simca last night, he has one of them back. Nothing will ever change with Sora, but in getting his sister (his most significant person) back in his life, he’s already doing better. On the Mother’s Day post for Zexion (that I had to drop, woe internet, woe), Ikki and Akito both welcomed him to sit down and help out. It was something that touched him. A lot. Because he is a fluffy bunny. Also, Ine is very good at speaking at him. On a whole, Kilik has had conversations that he should have had a lot sooner, but he’s a dick, he hides in a tower, and he makes things difficult.
The Simca thread is relevant to this entire post: It's here!
It basically means that Kilik will still be Kilik, but he’ll be closer to his sister, holding her hand and being close to her, but he’ll still be a dick to a lot of people. Except Spitfire, because, you know. Spitfire. He loves his friend!
None of this will be instantly noticeable unless he’s around Simca because he’s a jackass and is really used to being picky and cranky and a pessimist. But he still just wants his happy family.
Oh, and Ringo probably knows about all of this. At least, some extent of it. I don’t think anyone but the original Gravity Children (+ Ine) know about his intimacy with Simca, especially with how things went down. ANYONE ELSE knowing will be up to Simca’s player, since it’d be up to her to have been honest.
SO I GUESS THAT’S THAT.
Now, the “how I play him” part of things!
Kilik, in canon, is a very loving individual. When he gets them out of the tower, it’s partly because he couldn’t bear to handle the idea that the rest of them were going to be disposed of. Even if he had a very close relationship with his sister, his friends were Very Important to him. As a result, he became a type of person who would do anything to keep his friends happy. Through this, he developed a sort of complex-Kilik thinks he needs to save people, and he has a very self-righteous (read: very dick-like) complex regarding all of it. He’s not benevolent and all loving or anything, but the idea of people getting hurt has always bothered him, and even if he got his friends out, I think killing someone to do it probably bothered him. At least a little, because it was an eye for an eye thing, and at the time-I don’t think he could see that killing someone was a necessity.
Obviously, that’s changed.
But to get to the “Kilik has changed” part of things, he had to be manipulated, lied to, and basically treated like crap. I think there was a time in his life when he considered Sora to be his best friend. With his easy smiles and way of encouraging Kilik, there was no way that Kilik could see that he intended to hurt him. I doubt this was EVER reciprocated, but it was how he looked at him. But when it came to the Gravity Children and all of Sleeping Forest, he loved each and every one of his friends. That’s why he was so easy to lie to: he would believe almost everything at face value. To Kilik, there was no reason to believe anything else.
The tragic part of Kilik’s story is that he went from a huge optimist to a pessimist. I think somewhere along the way, he never exactly developed a bug for how to PROPERLY handle things, but he never liked the idea of killing. Even if Nike hadn’t shown up, he wouldn’t have killed his friends, and it’s basically shown that he still believed in the idea of freedom, but freedom could never be met through chaos, pain, and hurting others. But Kilik is very much an all-or-nothing type of person. So even if he wants freedom and the sky, he doesn’t think it can be obtained, and to some extent, the experiment with Sora made him believe that. That doesn’t make him want it any less, and returning to the tower, burying himself to some extent, was one of the most painful things he ever had to do to himself. As I said, he’s a self-righteous bastard in some ways, and this is his way of proving his point.
When he attacked the Gravity Children, I think he was caught in a rage, but I think it didn’t take him long to feel guilt. Again, Nike wouldn’t have been a necessary addition to bring about any deathless end; I think that it wasn’t very long into all of it that Kilik’s self-righteousness started to fade but he had to continue on.
In those moments, he lost all of his friends, but he lost two significant things: someone he considered his best friend (though, arguably, he lost him before-but that moment really solidified it) and his sister. The former was a big deal but the latter was a severe blow on him. It’s made obvious in how Simca thinks about him later that their relationship was very intimate. In the closest imaginable way; she was essentially his other half, his tuner, and though he was in love with the idea of Rika, it was Simca who he believed would always be at his side. That was a fact of life. Sora took away Simca and Rika. Simca, his sister who he loved and basically lived easily because she was around, and Rika, the girl he was romantically interested in. After all, Sora really did dangle Rika before his eyes to get him to welcome her onto the team, and then Kilik looks extremely hurt. But he lets himself give in to his desire for Rika just as he comes to realize that there’s no turning back with Sora (hence the kiss and dance on the rooftop).
However, years later, it was Simca who he sought to protect from Sora-not Rika. Even as Rika and Sora got back together (and there’s no doubt that Kilik knew that happened), he did nothing to change it. Rika’s still someone he will eternally be interested in, but Simca is the only person he really indirectly contacts before Ikki comes down. There’s a lot going on with Ringo, but it’s obvious that Ringo’s conflicts are internal rather than an extension of Kilik’s. n an extension of Kilik’s.
Now, fast forward to Kilik’s intentions and goals. It looks as if he still wants AT to end, that he wants that chaos purged from the world, but underneath that, I think he still wants freedom, the sky, and as he explained to the Medicine Seller-his truth. Kilik looks to the sky for hope and answers before he starts to decisively make his decisions, and it’s that which he gives up. But he knows that everyone can find a piece of something in the sky. I play him with the belief that he wants Ikki to succeed, but Ikki is not at the level he needs to be. Kilik sees the same hope in Ikki that Simca saw in him, and he understands that Ikki and Ringo’s potential bond could mean a lot for the world, as it brings a lot together.
My PROOF for this is that he seems to coax Ikki a lot with his words in canon, trying to give him the indication of how he must be, and he does the same during the battle later on where he watches from the rafters. These are very significant moments for understanding that Kilik wants Ikki to beat Sora. The hilarious part is that if Kilik strapped on a normal pair of AT, he could probably STILL beat Sora down pretty good, but he knows that it isn’t his job to do that.
So he waits in his tower for that day. Sleeping Forest as it stands is all he has left in the world. Ringo is someone he’s very honest with, and I can honestly say she can probably do very little wrong. The rest are the same way, which is probably why they’re the creepy band of fucked up people and Kilik can still act like he’s bad ass. The tower has rules and is extreme and is pretty much not a place where you want to be restricted, but these are Kilik’s restrictions-IE his way of protecting himself.
There’s a fear in the AT world of Kilik for a reason. They’re afraid of him coming out of the tower because of what he’s done and how he threatens everything. But I think that what they fear and what will happen are different. I’m not saying he won’t come out and be totally bad ass-Oh!Great is holding off on showing his full abilities for a reason-but I do think that when it happens, it won’t be against Ikki. But I guess we’ll see. And if it is against Ikki, it will be at a point where Ikki can beat him (or beat him in the near future). BUT THEORIES AREN’T COMPLETELY RELEVANT.
THAT SAID, THERE’S CAMP.
Kilik hates camp and likes it at the same time (he’ll never admit the latter). As everyone knows, Kilik is a fluffy bunny at heart who just wants to love people. His current disposition isn’t the one he naturally acquired, and any way of alleviating that means he’s a very happy guy. Or, as happy as Kilik can manage.
There are two things to keep in mind in camp.
1. There’s Simca.
2. There’s Sora.
They’re both of the significant things he lost, and there’s one of them he can get back. After my thread with Simca last night, he has one of them back. Nothing will ever change with Sora, but in getting his sister (his most significant person) back in his life, he’s already doing better. On the Mother’s Day post for Zexion (that I had to drop, woe internet, woe), Ikki and Akito both welcomed him to sit down and help out. It was something that touched him. A lot. Because he is a fluffy bunny. Also, Ine is very good at speaking at him. On a whole, Kilik has had conversations that he should have had a lot sooner, but he’s a dick, he hides in a tower, and he makes things difficult.
The Simca thread is relevant to this entire post: It's here!
It basically means that Kilik will still be Kilik, but he’ll be closer to his sister, holding her hand and being close to her, but he’ll still be a dick to a lot of people. Except Spitfire, because, you know. Spitfire. He loves his friend!
None of this will be instantly noticeable unless he’s around Simca because he’s a jackass and is really used to being picky and cranky and a pessimist. But he still just wants his happy family.
Oh, and Ringo probably knows about all of this. At least, some extent of it. I don’t think anyone but the original Gravity Children (+ Ine) know about his intimacy with Simca, especially with how things went down. ANYONE ELSE knowing will be up to Simca’s player, since it’d be up to her to have been honest.
SO I GUESS THAT’S THAT.