starting over...
well, i finally decided to make a new lj. even though i know only one person besides me will read this. but i'm bored right now...sooooooooo
*POOP*
well...so anyways...i'm a little confused about where my life is right now. 3 more weeks till summer, woot. but its hard to celebrate, when i know i fucked up so bad this semester...to go from getting straight A's in highschool to failing a class, and hoping to get at least 2 B's and a C is pretty ruff....i'm like in this mood where i don't really care about anything. i think i just need a break to think about what i want. it sucks though because i have to go to summer school now, since i failed a class :( lame.
and school isn't the only thing i'm confused about right now...ahaha stupid transition but whatever. there's these two guys that i'm really into, and who like me too. this is a first for me, like i don't know what to do because both are really cool. like one really wants a serious relationship with me, and the other is more chill and wants to see where things go. which i kind of like. anyway, here is a plus minus list for the hell of it:
BOY #1
+treats me really good
+i like being around him
+i know he'd do anything for me
+everyone likes him
+really smart
+sarcastic as fuck
+likes to drink and party
+has own apartment and car
-only 19 (just kidding...)
-wants more than i can give him right now
BOY#2
+cool as hell
+laid back
+soo cute
+22 haha
+really mature
+genuine nice person
+likes to party
+wants to just see how things go
-works to much
-might join the army in a couple of months
i wish i knew what i wanted.....because the longer i take to figure it out the more i hurt boy #1 and it sucks...
tell me what to do, please.