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today my world came crashing down. danny and I are on a break. This is going to last for a lot longer than i need it to, and especially want it to. my chest hurts, i wore sunglasses out of his building, to hide the teary eyes, I'm still wearing them, I hate when people where sunglasses inside. i hate how i feel so shitty and so worthless, and undesireable and all the bad things put together. the glasses trick isn't working anymore, they're supposed to make me stop crying. I feel so sad. i definitely need to see a shrink. Sometimes when i close my eyes, i can see myself slitting my wrists. sometimes aren't you just so so so so so tired. i know this isn't the end of the world. and i'm not going to kill myself. I'm not even considering it. It's just creepy to see it. don't freak out. I'm ok.