FINALLY HAPPY

[goinback2callie]

wow...that entry i posted yesterday...i might as well delete it because...(drum roll, por favor)...

I AM SO HAPPY!!!

i just suddenly became happy, really all of the sudden-like!
and this time, i don't think it's any manicdepression stuff
i think it's the real thing!

i haven't been this happy or at peace in SUCH a long time!
it's great!!!

i really don't know what brought it about
i think what triggered it was that one little sentence from you
and although it may not even have been directed towards me,
it gave me closure and a sense of reality
and even though it's not what i wanted, i have FINALLY accepted it!
yay!

i think i was just AFRAID
afraid to be happy with what i have, knowing that i couldn't have it all
but i'm okay with that now!
i'm not afraid anymore!!!

and i'm through analyzing EVERYTHING!
i'm just going to let things happen and make the best out of both the good and bad things

hopefully this great feeling will last!
I LOVE EVERYONE! (lol, random, but i HAVE been talking to sarah for a while, so the randomness must be contageous! haha)

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