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Within the last month or so, I have learned a lot of things. Things about myself, and about life. I have learned to be myself; be independent and straightforward, however, there are still some things I need to improve on. I believe this is due to a new person in my life. I find him breathtakingly brilliant. He is one of the most amazing men I have ever met.
And yet, my conscience tells me this is not real.
How could that be? Must I pinch myself to see?
If this is real, soon enough, I will be happy. I already am, but I mean genuinely happy. I don't know if it's selfish of me to think this, but I believe I deserve at least that.
On a side note, I have a few goals for myself... I want to be able to be myself, my actual self. I want to stop lying not only to myself, but to everyone around me. I want to look at myself in the mirror, and like what I see, not only on the outside but inside as well. I want to love myself, as much as I love the close people around me. I want to not have to need reassurance from others. This summer, I'm going to shed my skin, and reveal an improved me.
Sounds too dramatic, but I just needed to get this off my chest.
And yet, my conscience tells me this is not real.
How could that be? Must I pinch myself to see?
If this is real, soon enough, I will be happy. I already am, but I mean genuinely happy. I don't know if it's selfish of me to think this, but I believe I deserve at least that.
On a side note, I have a few goals for myself... I want to be able to be myself, my actual self. I want to stop lying not only to myself, but to everyone around me. I want to look at myself in the mirror, and like what I see, not only on the outside but inside as well. I want to love myself, as much as I love the close people around me. I want to not have to need reassurance from others. This summer, I'm going to shed my skin, and reveal an improved me.
Sounds too dramatic, but I just needed to get this off my chest.