Miserable
I am feeling worse and worse emotionally as this pregnancy continues. I feel like it's never going to end, though in reality it will probably be over in the next 3 days. Physically, I feel fine. I have back pain and I get some mild cramping every-so-often, but haven't had any contractions or anything. Tomorrow is my due date, and if I haven't gone into labor by then, I have an appointment with the midwives at 11am where I get to be hooked up to a fetal monitor for around 45 minutes for a "non-stress test" -- to make sure the baby is doing okay still being in there at the full 40wks. Then, I have an actual appointment with one of the midwives after that to see how I'm doing and whatever.
I can't help but feel really frustrated. I'm still stuck being pregnant, when I thought I'd at least be in labor by now. I had really gotten my hopes up that I would have had the baby a couple days ago, since at my last appointment I had dialated to almost 4cm already. It's so annoying to still be waiting and everything is getting to me. Mike's a great husband, he really is, but if I hear "You should have the baby today" one more time, I'm just gonna lose it. He doesn't get just how frustrating this is for me.
I know the baby will be here soon, but it's not soon enough for me (c'mon, I'm an Aries.. which means I don't like to wait for things in general). It's something you can't really understand unless you've been there. I tried explaining it to Mike like this: it's like having someone tell you, "Okay, I'm going to deposit a million dollars into your bank account in 9 months. Probably between this day and this day." and then having to wait and wait and wait, and once the timeframe arrives, you're checking your bank account every 5 freaking minutes, hoping to see that huge lump of cash, but it's not there yet, and should have been by now. Understand? It sucks.
I can't help but feel really frustrated. I'm still stuck being pregnant, when I thought I'd at least be in labor by now. I had really gotten my hopes up that I would have had the baby a couple days ago, since at my last appointment I had dialated to almost 4cm already. It's so annoying to still be waiting and everything is getting to me. Mike's a great husband, he really is, but if I hear "You should have the baby today" one more time, I'm just gonna lose it. He doesn't get just how frustrating this is for me.
I know the baby will be here soon, but it's not soon enough for me (c'mon, I'm an Aries.. which means I don't like to wait for things in general). It's something you can't really understand unless you've been there. I tried explaining it to Mike like this: it's like having someone tell you, "Okay, I'm going to deposit a million dollars into your bank account in 9 months. Probably between this day and this day." and then having to wait and wait and wait, and once the timeframe arrives, you're checking your bank account every 5 freaking minutes, hoping to see that huge lump of cash, but it's not there yet, and should have been by now. Understand? It sucks.