my bandaid is gone

[gogogoerica]

he left today. i cried in my head. i cried the other nite too because i was drunk and silly. i ate a bunch of crap. lets see what i ate.

chocolate kisses
chicken nuggets with cheese
skittles
korean grape sac drink

mixed with jim beam.

not a great combination.
my tummy hurt.

then we played uno
with stella and brooks
and stella won once
then anthony made an uno face
and stella drew seven hahaha sucker.
then anthony won..

anythong. :(
i feel depressed now he's gone. but i'm talking to angela online so its making me feel a little better.

i wrote a song for anythong. but i'm not done. just lyrics for now.
i figured out how to play distortion and my ugitar on the computer. so i hope i can make some tracks.

later that nite.. i went to bed. and he rubbed my belly till i felt better.
i felt better five minutes later.

have you ever really felt so .. much for a person? without knowing that much about them?
i think this is how i feel..
a strong ridiculous feeling

after mike.. i was promising myself never to get involved for a really long time
then i met anthony.. and i thought he was really cute..
then we talked.. and .. i felt something stupidly rad.

i wonder what he thinks of me.. i really do..
i dont get the same vibes.
i dont know. i'm dumb

anyway.

i'm listening to the cd he made me
and its awesome.
he left his sweater here..
and it smells like him.
:(