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I ate so badly today! Let's just say a corndog was involved... Oh well. At least it was a sexual food. Maybe the humor was worth it.
Feeling alternatively fat and not fat. I'm both tired and stressed right now, which leaves me torn between going to the gym or sitting on my ass wasting time at the computer. I'm also fighting the urge to purge (I like that phrase because it ryhmes) my dinner. Eating the sexual corndog has it's share of associated guilt.
Trying hard right now to find some art projects I can work on-- those always make me feel better. But I don't think I'll have anything to work on until the weekend at best. So that leaves reading for classes or the gym. Luckily I have bowling tonight, which is fun and prevents me from self-destructive tendencies. I bowl with three of my friends for intramural sports. We alternate who has to drive... I have to admit it is more amusing when 3 out of the 4 of us are drunk.
I hate being bulimic, but then I'm not sure that 100% of me wants to get better right now. And I don't think I can really "completely" recover until I'm entirely committed. And I don't know when I'm going to hit that stage.
Feeling alternatively fat and not fat. I'm both tired and stressed right now, which leaves me torn between going to the gym or sitting on my ass wasting time at the computer. I'm also fighting the urge to purge (I like that phrase because it ryhmes) my dinner. Eating the sexual corndog has it's share of associated guilt.
Trying hard right now to find some art projects I can work on-- those always make me feel better. But I don't think I'll have anything to work on until the weekend at best. So that leaves reading for classes or the gym. Luckily I have bowling tonight, which is fun and prevents me from self-destructive tendencies. I bowl with three of my friends for intramural sports. We alternate who has to drive... I have to admit it is more amusing when 3 out of the 4 of us are drunk.
I hate being bulimic, but then I'm not sure that 100% of me wants to get better right now. And I don't think I can really "completely" recover until I'm entirely committed. And I don't know when I'm going to hit that stage.