Easy, Lucky, Free
getting worse, and I hate it.
I know it's really corny to say, and nothing you say to me will cheer me up, it's nothing personal. But anyway, I just hate that feeling of being surrounded by people and still feeling lonely. I hate acting really confident and secure and happy at school then coming home and breaking apart and wanting to go back to bad habits. I hate that I can't figure out how to pull myself back up because I feel like I've tried everything. I've got nothing I can think of to look forward to, no light at the end of the tunnel, no reasoning for feeling this way.
I know I'll look back on this entry and think "why do I bitch so much" but for now it's just overwhelming. I don't know what else I can do. I can't push forward but I can't give up neither.
I know it's really corny to say, and nothing you say to me will cheer me up, it's nothing personal. But anyway, I just hate that feeling of being surrounded by people and still feeling lonely. I hate acting really confident and secure and happy at school then coming home and breaking apart and wanting to go back to bad habits. I hate that I can't figure out how to pull myself back up because I feel like I've tried everything. I've got nothing I can think of to look forward to, no light at the end of the tunnel, no reasoning for feeling this way.
I know I'll look back on this entry and think "why do I bitch so much" but for now it's just overwhelming. I don't know what else I can do. I can't push forward but I can't give up neither.